When I'm here, you'll never die.

I woke up this morning and it was freezing for some reason. Got into my favourite jacket that Mummzie(Mom) got for me from London and headed to school. And yes, I was wearing bangs today. We've received our End of Year Exams time table. Ohmy, I feel like I've practically slept through the whole year. You know, when you're asleep time passes in a flash. I was thinking through what I've done for the past few months. Gosh! I had lived for the past 8 months or so without a bf. This is kind of random but this shows that I can live without love but not until now. And myohmy! BFF, where've you been? I MISS YOU, J. Please come back. I miss your company and doing our crazy stuffs together. :( If I've done wrong, forgive me. Let bygones be bygones alright? I hope you read this, my silly J. Awww man. I feel terrible now. I really miss you, like MISSSSSSSSSSSSS you...(crazily).

Signed our cards and letters, BFF.
Where's your millionth way to make me laugh?
You've not been looking out for me.
I miss you around.

P.S. Please help save the earth and indirectly you'll be saving the one you love, really. Our earth needs our love and care. RECYCLE, REDUCE & REUSE!!

Jazreel.

Building up to the neck.

It's been a tiring day for me. I mean I'm only 15 and I've to cope with so much stress. Exams, studies, piano, school... Life's way too busy. Urgh! I wish I had powers to just stop the time to spend more time with my family and friends. Not worrying about anything at all. But this is life, gotta learn now or it'll be worst in the future with work and money. My piano exams are just around the corner and I'm not prepared at all. Not even a single bit. There's still so much more to learn and practice. I'm stressed, seriously. I need chocolate to calm my nerves down and make me happy. Sugar rush!

This flood is slowly rising up, swallowing the ground.
Beneath my feet.
Tell me how anybody thinks under this condition.
So I'll swim as the water rises up.
The sun is sinking down.
Now all I can see are the planets in a row.
Suggesting that it's best that I slow down.

The night's a perfect shade of dark blue.
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
Well, I'm here with you.

Jazreel.

The world's burning down.

School ended 2 hours earlier for the Sec 3s to get ready for our excursion. We started off at Kranji Mrt then to the Kranji War Memorial, Old Ford Factory and around the Padang. I had much fun. This whole amazing race ended at around 5.30pm. Headed to get chicken pies with Veron, Fiona, Nicholas, Nigel and Johar. Nicholas left before getting the chicken pie though. Met Jing Yee then went to bugis to get her lip stud. Soon after, Jing left for tuition. The rest went home. I went to meet Mum at Skate Park then went to get her iPhone at ComCentre. I'm so jealous... I want a iPhone too.

We were boxing the stars,
You were swinging for Mars.
The water reached the West Coast,
and took the power lines.
Then it was me and you,
and the whole town underwater.
There was nothing we could do,
it was dark blue.

Love, Jazreel.

Touch my love.

55555555555555555555555555555555555555555555555555555.

Honey, you rock.

Headed down to hub to meet Laura then Louis and Veron at Wisma. While Louis went to Hardrock to meet his friend. Saw Royson, Hung, Bai Yong, Lowell and "Rodent". Went to borders to look around then sent Laura to the bus stop. Had mac for dinner then walked around. Met Louis then dwon to Bugis. Chilled at Om later. Decided to go Mustafa. On the way, we saw this dead mouse and the guys took a picture of it, evil. Rae, Irfan and Louis left for home. Fai, Bonn, Dan and I made our way to Mustafa. I was picked-pocket soon after but luckily, I've got spare. So ya, don't expect to be calling me or texting me for the next few days. ): Dammit, really. I only want my sim back. Went home soon after around 6 plus in the morn. Slept till now. I'm in no mood to blog. Bye.

Love,
Jazreel.

First Look at Gossip Girls Season 2.

My Story. (Fiction)

Write about a time when you had to wait in hope for a miracle to happen.

Every mother's wish is to watch their own child lead a normal life-growing up happily and most of all healthily. Dad has left my mother and I for almost six years. The doctors found a tumour near my dad's heart and that took his live. Ever since, Mum and I had got over the fact that Dad was gone and he would never come back. We learnt to be independent and rely on each other as time past. Everything had been well, until one very day, destiny greedily changed its mind...

It has already been more than four years that I had beem relying on a machine, This machine would help me live for as long as I could take this pain. Every session would be torturing... I was diagnosed with kidney failure. During one of these sessions, I was lucky enough to be able to watch my mum at a distance, speaking to the doctors. I could see her trying to hold her tears back. My mum had became fatigued from all the stress from work. She had to earn more money for my treatments, Her hair had lost its natual colour. It is whiter than before and the huge eyebag beneath her eye showed that she had not slept for nights since the day. Everyday would be more worries and more stress for her. This was heart-wrenching but I was glad. I could clearly see how much I meant to her, how much pain she had went through just for me. However, I could not do much as I was too weak to. I felt like a huge burden.

Like normal children do, I would go to school and study in the morning. I had hoped to be a doctor so I could save many other lives. However, my hopes had shattered. How am I supposed to save others when I couldn't even save mine? I could not run and play like the other children do. I would usually sit alone at a corner and watch them play at a distance. Doctors told me I cannot perspire much as I would lose much water and if I were to consume too much, my feet would swell and hurt. This was torturing but I knew I had to not only help myself but my mum as well. I would not want her to get too worried, she might lose her job and that would be terrible.

My name had been on that list for years. I had not thought I would be waiting for this long. I hope for just one kind sympathetic soul to just come forward and my live could be saved with his kidney, but this was just a wish. I had waited for years and all hopes had gone. There was no news, not even one. I am truly disappointed but there was nothing much I could do. I have to learn to be independent as I knew my mum would not be here for me for my entire life.

On the 3rd of July, it was my birthday and also the best day in my entire life. I woke up to find a new lease in life. I received news that a donor has came foward. Tears filled my eyes as I received the wonderful news. I knew that would not have to leave with this pain anymore.

Jazreel.

I'm outta time.

Heylo. Didn't went for class yesterday as I was too sleepy and tired to get my ass off to sch. Besides, I was having a mild cough. I can't believe I could actually sleep till 7pm the next evening. Headed for piano class after dinner. I got scolded by Miss Anne. :( I hadn't been practising my scales and pieces. I admit I was horrible and my exams are just a few more days away. Gawd, I gotta buck up and put in more effort to practise.

School was fun today, except that I was scolded for many reasons. First by Mrs Vjay for not handing in my chem file. Then Ms Tan for hand signaling to Veron during assembly. She accused me of talking when I didn't even made a sound. Urgh! During assembly this morning, there was a really long ant trail leading from one side to the other. All the sec3 classes actually made way for the ants!! Everyone wasn't paying attention to the speaker but the ant trail instead. Hah.

And I rushed home after school to finish my proposal for the Science of Beauty Awards. Damn it. I'm so sorry Laura and Joelle, I know I pissed off you girls. I got us into this shit by participating and I'll get us not really out of this but make sure we'll do well. So, I had already typed and sent it to Mr TanKH, Godberg. What a really cool name, seriously. Alright, I should be practising and crashing the piano now. Bye...




Everyone is looking at the ant trail.


Even Kevin is watching too.


Kok Ping & Mengda is trying to kill the ants. Evil!!

My head and my heart are colliding, chaotic.

Pace of the world I just wish I could stop it.

Try to appear like I've got it together,

I'm falling apart.

Jazreel.

Her volcano.

School's cool except that I got scolded by Ms Ren for not bringing my chinese assessment book again. Urgh. No comment 'cause apparently the school has checked up some of our blogs and stuff. Cyber bullying, meeting people from the webbie...etc. were being brought up during assembly. It was kinda weired as it was sort of like an urgent mass meeting for all levels. So anyway, I've got my math and chem results. Math-19/30, Chem-25/35. Not bad kay! There's improvement and I'm so proud of myself. For me, more freedom = better results. Left for mac straight after school with Laura, Amanda and Angeline. Veron, Weijie, Shao Wen and Hung came afterwards. Oh well, Laura's volcano has erupted. (inside joke). Heh. Went to Shao's house around 4 plus, stayed for 2-3 hours. Watched vids on youtube, ate peanuts and teevee. Some were sleeping. Then home.

'Cause the possibility
that you'd ever
feel the same way
about me,
it's just too much, just too much...

Jazreel.

I got swept away.

Sch was so tiring today. I can't believe I actually took my 2.4km retest in uniform and passed it, finally. Took the test with Angeline while Laura and Amanda were at the hall playing volleyball. Cca after school. Then, bused home with Efdim. Time passed really fast today. Heading for the showers now, then dinner...

All that I've missed I see in the reflection
Passed me while I wasn't paying attention.
Tired of rushing, racing and running...
I'm falling apart.

Jazreel.

Spaceship takes off for Planet of Flowers.

Gran' evenin'!

I was waken up by really loud cheers to Singapore at the Olympics by my family. Oh, it's like family gone "wild" today for most families. "Wild" as in mad not like those girls you would see on Girls Gone Wild. I was really sleepy today at tuition but I managed to not fall asleep. Hah. Came home around 1plus, had lunch then slept till now. Myohmy, 60% of my lifetime goes to sleeping. 20% play, 15% education, 5% for healthcare purposes like eating. So anyway, I'm hungry now.
Off for dinner...

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby?

Right now I feel invinsible to you, like I'm not real.
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?

Why you'd turn away?

Jazreel.

Crush.

Mac-ed yesterday with Weijie and Veron. Home, changed then usual. Met Veron then to haji. JL came kinda late. Watched vids and stuff. I bought a top and a clutch. Had dinner then back to haji. JL was supposed to get our asses off to Pulau Ubin but apparently, they took the wrong bus and ended up at Pasir Ris, stucked and couldn't get home. Woke up this morn and met with the girlies for the CTI concert. Didn't really enjoy. It's just like an encore of what they performed at school. Went to Lau Pa Sat with Veron for dinner. We had beef noodles, fish soup and "susu". The food there power yo. But the "susu" was damn hard to suck. Fyi. it's some kind of shell fish and it's super hard to get the flesh out. We sat there like morons for 1.5 hours trying to figure how to get the flesh out. In the end, we decided to take away the "susu" 'cause we're so sick and tired of forcing the flesh out. Called JL and stuff. Veron asked me to ask them something. Veron :" Oh, ask Fai they all if they want susu?" Susu in malay means milk. I kept laughing. It was damn hilarous. Imagine I did asked them, they must be like wth and thinking of milk as in breast-milk. Rofl. Headed for Bugis, went to Penisular on the way. Bought 2 bottoms. Met up with Derick at BK. F called me and I couldn't really hear him clearly, he sounded quite angry for some reason. He doesn't wanna tell me. Boy, tell me what's wrong, will you?

Do you ever think when we're all alone,
all that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breathe when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I'm trying to walk away,
but I know this crush ain't going away...

Mot.

Jazreel.

Never enough.

Raaaaahhh!

School was a blast today. Played volleyball during pe and I got hit in the face. Damn. Laura injured her back again and bought ice to lessen the pain. I helped her to apply the cream and massage it for her. That cream smells man. Eeyer. But anyway, I'm so nice. Heh. Slept in the canteen while Veron was doing her work when the girls were away. Chit-chatted with her and Weijie for close to 2 hours. Came home then headed for the shower. While I was on the bus, this old lady was getting off and the ignorant female bus driver shut the door and it hit the old lady's ass, pushing her forward and she almost fell. Wth, I swear it was damn bad la. Look how evil bus drivers has become; terrible. I'm famished, really.

I'm never good,
never good enough for someone like you.

Jazreel.

Mac.

I just woke up I think.


I swear I would rip his damn balls.



Watching 3 dumb girls taking photo.
You know who you are!!!

Jazreeeeeeel.

JL, I miss you.

Yo people.

JL meant Justice League not Jazreel Lim. I don't gay/les myself except on some special occasions where you'll see me really high which is like 5.5% of the time now. Used to be 35% though. So if you're lucky, you would. Man, I'm bored. Seriously, I still haven't revise the math formula and equations. Dammit! Probably after this post. Dan told me he just bought a cam. Hmmm. Anyway, don't mind the strike outs in the previous post. It has issues. Like for god's sake, blogger, was that on purpose or what. Tell me man. I wanna go shopping again. This time for tops and maybe watches. Veron? Laura? Amanda? Angeline? Weijie? Anybody??? Let's go shop around after CTI's yeah? I need a new wardrobe, seriously. Everything's like so last season.

Wackles!!! (I don't know what it means, just felt like saying it.)

Jazreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel.

P.S. I love my name. Rofl.

Karma's coming to pay me back.

Aye earthings.

School's crazy. Tomorrow, math paper which is also the last. I've got 59/100 for chinese. What? Pass okay!! Was bickerring with a rodent(ZK) during cme. He's so noisy. Then for chem, for the first time in my entire life, my notes were printed in colour. I know it's dumb to claim it but it's like a 0.01% to get notes printed like this. Headed for hub after class. Ate at the foodcourt and roamed around. Laura and I bought concealors to cover up our really heavy eyebags. I bought a lip balm too. Fell asleep at mac while the girls were chatting, when I woke up, there's a red patch on my forehead. How embarrassing.

It's still here but I've alr got over it that you'll never fall for me and I'm okay! Sisters 4eva! Man, this sounds gay but whatever. Heh.

This songs made me feel better and it's like a drug-him.

Fuck this shit. Everything's striked out.

The estatic pain of unrequited love.

Amour.

School's hell rocking fun today for some reason. We watched a play about BGR during assembly. Man... After remedials, the girls were singing at the top of our lungs at the canteen. Shahul came to stop us as there was O' level oral exams going on. Awww, bought fries and started eating like a piggy. Apparently, I think it's emotional eating. Trying very hard not to think about this prob, but everytime I try, it would only make me feel worst, then worsen. At least, my girlies did cheer me up a little today. So, tomorrow's a mystery.

Love the girl who's nothing to him,
Jazreel.

Mot.

I like this top.


Veronique Enah Ham!! What are you looking at??


My sexy babe.

Jazreel.

Let's go to the slum, where killers get hung.

oHola Shorty.

And so, as you can see I was really sad yesterday. It was a really bad day for me. *sighs... Met up with Veron at town today to have some girlfriend shopping kind of thing. It made me feel a little better because it distracted me for a moment. Now, it's back, it's back, it's back. Someone, save me? Bought a pair of gladiators and a watch. Saw lotsa ex-peirceans. Took some pics but apparently, I can't upload them due to some internal error by blogger. Somehow, I'm in no mood to blog. Just wanna lay down and watch the world go by...

Smells like florist shops and diesel fumes,
old clothes and torn fabric,
drunken guards and the ends of cigarettes on pavement,
with love and abandonment and ashes you walk on.

Jazreel.

Silhouette against a world of lies.

I'm sad.

Derick, there's no hero in this unsung story.

Tell me to go for 6, 7 or 10.
In my row of numbers, it starts with 5 and it never ends.
You tried to talk me in into moving on.
Try saving me, don't murder yourself in this process.
I'll never die, it's not my time.
There's no hero in this unsung story.
This is my rhapsody.
A state of elated bliss; estacy.

Just let me live a lie and I'll be fine.

He told me you'd kill him if you find out. I hope you do, really.

You may be my knight in shining armour,
but for all I could see is just dull and nothing else.
I'm blind.
Blinded by all these lies.
Forgive me.

FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Excuse me for being so vulger now. I'm not in a good mood today and apparently, someone just made it worst. You know, I'm so irritated. So effing irritated. Irrrrrrrrrriiiiitttttttaaaatttttteeeddddddddddd...
Urgh!!!!!!!

Rain is falling down on the sidewalk.

übermensch.

'Owaya warrld!

The weirdest things that you could ever imagine took place recently, today. I had such a weird weird weird weird weird dream last night, not gonna go into details. Woke up and headed for tuition. Miss Toh had injured her wrist during some student teacher soccer game. She was only in the game for 5 mins and she left, injured. Obviously her arm was bandaged and according to her, that part was itching. She used all kinds of weird stuff to relieve the itchy-ness. First, her red pen and the cap got stuck, so she had to dig it out. Then, a long ruler, fork, spoon and a cane.
Went for lunch with mum and bro. I had chicken rice and apparently, the chicken was half-cooked. Meaning it was half-raw la. Urgh! Laura called. She told me something I wasn't expecting. 4 weird things happened in a day. Weird!

P.S. I know it's weird for me to complain about weird things-the 5th.

Weirdo ♥ Weirdo.

Jazreel.

Layer me wi' colours.

Daddy's girl.

'Owaya readers! I'm bored.

Cam-whorin'.

These are the leftovers. But obviously, there's still more! I look kinda constipated in some of the pics 'coz I was trying very hard not to laugh at Veron. The guys were away and we had nothing to do. Veron and myself decided to play uno-stacko. We drawed. Both of us did our forfeit-farting loudly in the middle of haji. Lol. Then there here we are, cam-whoring, having the time of our lives.

Enjoy,

Jazreel.