I'm staring at my feet, my cheeks are turning red.

I was out with the Omar family earlier and I just got home. I had rib-eye beef steak. Mmmm... Food was so-so only.

Urgh, the weather these days are making me sick. First, it was all sunny then rainy.

Gosh, I've tuition later.

Brrr... I guess I'll just go lie in bed and wait for baby's text. :) Bye!

Jazreel.

All because two people fell in love.

HAMPIT

Headed home with baby pretty early yesterday after school. We were supposed to catch Valkyrie with the free movie tix but there wasn't any time slot available to fit our schedule so yeah, he stayed till evening then he went home.

Then, I went over to Ham's. We didn't do much. Surfed the net together, bathed, had dinner... Then we were supposed to catch Before Sunset & Before Sunrise together but I was too tired that I fell asleep at 9! I woke up 2 hours later then read some mags and went back to sleep again.

Had tuition this morning over at Ben's. He gave all his students a treat. Ham and I had ban mian. It was good. Mum came to fetch Ham and I home. I'm currently thinking of what to do. Oh yes, I have chinese tuition homework to complete.

& my family would be going out with the Omar family tomorrow for lunch over at Mad Jack's! Yippppppeeeee. I'm gonna see little Zoe. She must be so adorable now. Awww...

Sup boys! Here's the pics I promised to post when I'm free.

Jazreel.

So much more.

We'll stay strong, nothing can bring us down.

Without conscious thought, this chronic habit of mine led to over-reliance on one-person. I finally realized the importance of not being over-attached and to talk honestly and supportively with one another about practical and positive solutions that will allow both of us the room to grow individually within this partnership.

"Both of you paddling your own canoe, side-by-side, rather than the same canoe together; the space apart helps to ensure that each person carries a cohesive and whole sense of self that strengthens the sense of togetherness."
-Wendy Allen

We'll paint a picture of how expanding our horizons as individuals will enable our "coupledom" to flourish when we share personal discoveries.

I've learnt so much, so much today.

Anyway, I've scored 19/30 for my math tests! I know there's still room for improvement! :)

From this day onward, I'm gonna learn as much as I can everyday because there's so much out there for me to experience. In relationships, studies, life... so much more.

Tomorrow's gonna be a good day!

Peace out,
Jazreel.

v=fλ

I long to watch the sunset by the beach with you and only, you.

How time flies!
2 more tests to go...
I barely studied for the history paper last night. I was able to remember everything about WW2. But yet, there seemed to be loopholes here and there. I just flipped through the textbook one last time and went to bed. Oh, thanks Jocelyn, Olivia and Bei Yin for helping me to cramp up those last few points just before we entered the exam hall.
Nomura Kichisaburo and Cordell Hull!
Am I right?

God-damn! Physics paper tomorrow! I better pass! I don't wanna fail again. Oh wait a minute, did I told you guys what happened last year? I was embarrassed in front of the entire class for failing the easiest Physics paper. Shit. Mr Song definitely made me realize how lousy I am. But still, I haven't been putting effort at all to revise last year's topics.

Ben sent my mum about the report of how I've been doing at tuition. It's horrendous. I burst out crying to myself knowing that I could have done better. I hate this feeling, knowing that I'm starting to trip and losing grip of everything, everything. I don't wanna feel this way next year when I look at my O's result slip. I wanna feel proud of myself!

Knowing myself, I can never study alone. I need people around me to encourage me and tell me that I can battle this war ahead of me. Thanks baby and my girls, for letting me know that I'm not alone. Or else, I may be like some of the Iraqi soldiers who felt that there was no morale in battling the war anymore and surrender.

Omg, I had a sudden flash of the gong bird's face from the library. That made me giggle!

v=fλ

I can do this!

Jazreel.

Peekchas.

Since I was bored, I decided to upload all these pics from my phone. :)

Jazreel.

Boredom kills.

I'm so not in the mood to study at all now. I wanna have a break from all the books and head out to have fun. Urgh, bloody O's. I have to get my retainer brite thing. Whatever it's called. & some other stuff. Someone, call me? :)

Jazreel.

If only you knew.

I'm so disappointed in myself.

Everything I do is dumb or stupid. No matter how hard I try, it's always wrong, wrong, wrong. Is it wrong waiting for the person you love after school, watching him do what he loves most, then chat with each other on the way home?

There's a saying;
"Treat others like how you want to be treated."

I've given you everything I've got, everything.
I wouldn't mind being the one having to give all the time because I know,
somehow and some way, you would soon learn to appreciate the things I've done.

Jazreel.

Depletion

I'm so mentally exhausted.

If I told you that studies are taking 75% of my time up everyday,
is that good or bad?

What I really wish I could do now is hug baby to sleep for as long as I want. Then, wake up and hang out with the girlsssssss.

Math paper today. I think I would do pretty well considering that I managed to solve all the sums and finished on time. Yayyyyyyy, it's the first time in 1 year plus that I managed to finish the math paper. Okay I know, it's pathetic but at least, for once I succeed.

Muahahaha, Chem paper tomorrow. :) I really love Chem because I have an affinity for it. It's like I just happen to know the reactions between the chemicals. How weird. I wanna get full marks for Chem!

Okay, gotta bathe and shit, then revise and chat with love!

Bye, bitches.

Chafe emotions.

Today is just so not my day.

I felt so agonized at the thought of nothing. Someone please tell me I'm not suffering from premenstrual syndrome because whenever I do, I tend to hurt the people around me without giving any thought and then, regret later when problems starts surfacing. I managed to fight those emotions by ranting nonsense on my blog which was the posts I've deleted. I thought it was a waste or you may just call it crap.

I think it's time that I should rely more on myself. Since young, I've always been used to people doing things for me and yet, I wasn't grateful at all. I really hate it when people take things occurring around them for granted. I know, this is contradicting. It sounds like I hate myself. In fact, I don't at all. I love myself a lot kay.

I also need to start planning about what I want. Since, it's already February and I have no aim or goals at all. How am I gonna live through the other days of my life not knowing what I want?

For prelims, I wanna do well and hopefully get a DPA (direct poly admission) and get myself in the design course at either NYP or TP. Or maybe, business course. But wait, I can't even pass my math, how am I gonna take business or even get into poly. -.- Omg, see! This is what I mean, I don't know what I want!!!! *screams*

For RoysonQuekJiHao!
Hey love, I want you to study hard after your season! I'm serious! We must get into NYP! After O's, we shall get a job and earn big bucks together. Start saving, buy your motorcycle then can ride me to school everyday. ^^ You know I'll always be here for you and supporting you in every way. I love you! (K)

For my girls!
You girls ah, stop being distracted! Must get focused and aim to do well for O's and N's. Don't no action talk only (nato)! We must start planning our time wisely. Study, play, exercise, boys, school, pms... I'm sure we can do this, girls. Together we'll be the best of the very best! Love youuuuuuuuuuuu. *flying kisses*

For my all readers!
I feel like I have no time and you think you have a lot?? I don't think so! Off your com and do something much more wise kay! Work hard, play hard! :)

(heart),
Jazreel.

P.S. I miss my braces. :(

'Cos she sees sunrise in his eyes.

Hello, I enjoyed my Valentines' day so much! Did you?

Baby got my drawing (above) and the heart-shaped print boxers I got for him. Hahaha, he said I drew his nose too big, LOL. But he still like it very very much! Omg, this is one of the best pencil drawing I've ever done. Right, we continued watching the movie which till now, we haven't completed and it's only a 2 hour plus movie. Aiyoooooooo. Had dinner and then we went to soak in the warm pool for about an hour. Maven cooked Ramly burgers for all of us then mum came home with hokkien mee for supper! :) Fell asleep soon after... I heard baby snoring ah! So loud, but I like! Hehehe.

Baby left for home in the morning then I met him, Lowell, Kokping, Rina and Baiyong later at mac at noon to study. On my way there, I saw this old woman who was carrying such huge heavy bags and one of her wrist was injured. I felt so sorry for her that I helped her with her bags and walked her to the bus stop :)

Later, we ate then went to amk library to study for social studies. Baby highlighted all the important points that I need to remember for the test. Thanks love! We all went our seperate ways after getting stationery from Popular. While walking towards amk hub to take 262 to Bishan Park, baby and I this poor injured white dog near the bakery. We felt so sorry for it that we followed it to the staircase downstairs the block. I called mum and dad but no one answered. I wanted to bring it home. I told baby to go get some dog food for it while I waited. But but but, suddenly this fat ugly heartless woman with oily hair and horrible pigmentation came towards me and kicked the dog. I scolded her and she shout at me that that was her dog. Bloody hell. I'm damn irritated/pissed/annoyed that there's such people on earth. Evil, evil, evil. Just plain evil! >:( Took a bus to Bishan Park and then, baby and I saw a half-naked man using a used coca-cola bottle to scoop the water from the pond and bathed himself with it.

These incidents that happened today right before my very eyes made me realise how fortunate I am to be having such lovely parents who worked so hard to support this family and have provided me with everything I wanted. I swear I wouldn't ask for much anymore, I'll cherish everything I have now, forever. (Including you, baby) I'll study hard and earn as much money so that hopefully when baby and I get married, we don't have to suffer in poverty or what so ever problems that would have to be dealt with money. But I know, with baby here, we'll overcome every obstacles and hurdles together. No matter how hard life would be, as long as baby and I are here for each other, everyday would be a beautiful day. Right, love?

I love you with every breath, baby.

Jazreel.

I love you, you love me.

I love you,

you love me.

We are one big family.

With a great big hug and a kiss from me to you.

Won't you say you love me too!

Isn't this pic cute?

Heh.

I drew it with some application on my phone known as Flipbook Lite.

I'm gonna head to the shower now then knock out on my bed.

Yayyyyy, can't wait to see my baby tomorrow.

Awww~

Love my baby & girlies & "boyies",

Jazreel!

Mot.

Woke up bright and early only to head to Ben's for tuition. Went to Ham's for awhile then met the girls and we went to Bugis to shop. Soon after, they came over to my place for dinner, the boys and Rina came over too! We had barbeque food and string noodle. Right, I've nothing much to blog about. Oh yes, I'm gonna meet baby tomorrow. Hehee... Bishan Park! :)

Hope you guys who came over had fun!

Love,

Jazreel. 

Zoom.

My life is revolving like a circle which never stops spinning and I find it so hard to keep pace. Some say that life flies past real fast and indeed, it sure does. Ever felt like 24 hours a day isn't enough? Or wished that we were robots with feelings who never needed to sleep or eat? Well then, I'm glad to say that you aren't wasting your life away because you've been really busy.

What I want you guys to know is that to never forget about the ones who loves and cares for us. No matter how caught up we are with our lives, we should take time out and spend it with people who we enjoy being with. It could be the least exhausting thing you could do. Like taking a walk or jog in the park and/or catching a movie with your friends. Also, never forget to show and tell them how much they mean to you in your lives!

Yes, Valentines' Day is around the corner. Start thinking about the special person you would like to spend it with. It could be anyone. Don't feel shy about asking them out. Even if you were rejected, at least you knew you tried. It could also mean giving little gifts.

Remember; it's the thought that counts, not how huge or expensive your gift may be.

Okay, shoots. I don't even know why I type all these. Anyway, I hope it helped you guys.

Don't get why people created these Nikon Cameras?
Right click on the picture above, save it and zoom in.
You'll find out!

Tata!

Loveeeeeeeeeee,
Jazreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelll.

When all seems wrong.

Hey, I would like to tell you guys a story about someone I know very well. I hope you guys would learn from this.

Her heart stopped the moment he told her those words. She knew, deep down inside him, it wasn't true. It was a moment of anger and fiery. No matter how hard he'd tried, somehow there always seemed to be a problem.

She decided to give him the cold shoulder or silent treatment, smashing the things around him, telling herself that she's just letting off steam. She'd thought by doing so, she would get his attention. As a matter of fact, she did but those were methods coming from the wrong directions. This wasn't the first time. He wants so much to let her know that that was wrong, however, she seemed to be in her own world. He couldn't get to where she was.

Until one fine day, the truth came haunting and ripping her inside. Like a thunder bolt that had struck her directly, she finally saw how much he had loved her. In her dreams, she saw herself as another person. Someone she knew but yet, had changed so much to the point she feels so ashamed of herself.

From a far, she saw their relationship on the verge of breaking. Knowing that if she had not done something fast, she would lose him forever. Like a heart that needs a beat, he was her strength, her courage, her passion, her everything.

She saw the tiny ray of light glowing in her dark room. She learns that loving someone is being the best person she can be for him by knowing what he wants and what he doesn't. He hated to see her life revolving around him and only him. She knew it long before but just couldn't help herself to stay away from him.

She decides to study hard and this will help her to concentrate and focus in the later months as the national examinations are approaching. She tells herself that she would learn and study. Knowing that by doing this, she can direct her attention somewhere else and would also be able to be there when he were to need help in his studies.

She knows that fixing this relationship would be hard. It'd take a lot of time and effort for the both of them to get past this hurdle.

She hopes they could get over this problem and would be determined to fix this relationship together. She once took an oath and told herself that she would never leave him when he were to be faced in adversity. She will try her very best to solve every problem, no matter how hard it gets.

She knows that both of them are committed and truly love each other, this will all work out in the end.

His confidence in her is shaken
His trust in her is fully broken
Their past happiness seems forgotten
And it is her who allowed it to happen

So, sorry needs to be spoken
For she know that he is heart brokened
But she hope his heart will soften
And somehow, one day she will be forgiven

(heart)
Jazreel.

Because my love for you keeps growing stronger.

Love can brighten our day,
but love can also be filled with shades of grey.

Love can make us stay,
but love can also force us to walk away.
Love can be gentle and gay,
but love can also be fierce as they say.

My days you have made brighter,
because you fill them with much laughter.
My heart you have made warmer,
because you care for me and our future.
My life you have made happier,
because you make everything sweeter.
My feelings are stronger than ever,
because you make me love you like no other.

Happy 3rd anniversary, baby.
I love you, Roy.

(heart),
Jazreel.