So much more.

We'll stay strong, nothing can bring us down.

Without conscious thought, this chronic habit of mine led to over-reliance on one-person. I finally realized the importance of not being over-attached and to talk honestly and supportively with one another about practical and positive solutions that will allow both of us the room to grow individually within this partnership.

"Both of you paddling your own canoe, side-by-side, rather than the same canoe together; the space apart helps to ensure that each person carries a cohesive and whole sense of self that strengthens the sense of togetherness."
-Wendy Allen

We'll paint a picture of how expanding our horizons as individuals will enable our "coupledom" to flourish when we share personal discoveries.

I've learnt so much, so much today.

Anyway, I've scored 19/30 for my math tests! I know there's still room for improvement! :)

From this day onward, I'm gonna learn as much as I can everyday because there's so much out there for me to experience. In relationships, studies, life... so much more.

Tomorrow's gonna be a good day!

Peace out,
Jazreel.

v=fλ

I long to watch the sunset by the beach with you and only, you.

How time flies!
2 more tests to go...
I barely studied for the history paper last night. I was able to remember everything about WW2. But yet, there seemed to be loopholes here and there. I just flipped through the textbook one last time and went to bed. Oh, thanks Jocelyn, Olivia and Bei Yin for helping me to cramp up those last few points just before we entered the exam hall.
Nomura Kichisaburo and Cordell Hull!
Am I right?

God-damn! Physics paper tomorrow! I better pass! I don't wanna fail again. Oh wait a minute, did I told you guys what happened last year? I was embarrassed in front of the entire class for failing the easiest Physics paper. Shit. Mr Song definitely made me realize how lousy I am. But still, I haven't been putting effort at all to revise last year's topics.

Ben sent my mum about the report of how I've been doing at tuition. It's horrendous. I burst out crying to myself knowing that I could have done better. I hate this feeling, knowing that I'm starting to trip and losing grip of everything, everything. I don't wanna feel this way next year when I look at my O's result slip. I wanna feel proud of myself!

Knowing myself, I can never study alone. I need people around me to encourage me and tell me that I can battle this war ahead of me. Thanks baby and my girls, for letting me know that I'm not alone. Or else, I may be like some of the Iraqi soldiers who felt that there was no morale in battling the war anymore and surrender.

Omg, I had a sudden flash of the gong bird's face from the library. That made me giggle!

v=fλ

I can do this!

Jazreel.

Peekchas.

Since I was bored, I decided to upload all these pics from my phone. :)

Jazreel.

Boredom kills.

I'm so not in the mood to study at all now. I wanna have a break from all the books and head out to have fun. Urgh, bloody O's. I have to get my retainer brite thing. Whatever it's called. & some other stuff. Someone, call me? :)

Jazreel.

If only you knew.

I'm so disappointed in myself.

Everything I do is dumb or stupid. No matter how hard I try, it's always wrong, wrong, wrong. Is it wrong waiting for the person you love after school, watching him do what he loves most, then chat with each other on the way home?

There's a saying;
"Treat others like how you want to be treated."

I've given you everything I've got, everything.
I wouldn't mind being the one having to give all the time because I know,
somehow and some way, you would soon learn to appreciate the things I've done.

Jazreel.

Depletion

I'm so mentally exhausted.

If I told you that studies are taking 75% of my time up everyday,
is that good or bad?

What I really wish I could do now is hug baby to sleep for as long as I want. Then, wake up and hang out with the girlsssssss.

Math paper today. I think I would do pretty well considering that I managed to solve all the sums and finished on time. Yayyyyyyy, it's the first time in 1 year plus that I managed to finish the math paper. Okay I know, it's pathetic but at least, for once I succeed.

Muahahaha, Chem paper tomorrow. :) I really love Chem because I have an affinity for it. It's like I just happen to know the reactions between the chemicals. How weird. I wanna get full marks for Chem!

Okay, gotta bathe and shit, then revise and chat with love!

Bye, bitches.

Chafe emotions.

Today is just so not my day.

I felt so agonized at the thought of nothing. Someone please tell me I'm not suffering from premenstrual syndrome because whenever I do, I tend to hurt the people around me without giving any thought and then, regret later when problems starts surfacing. I managed to fight those emotions by ranting nonsense on my blog which was the posts I've deleted. I thought it was a waste or you may just call it crap.

I think it's time that I should rely more on myself. Since young, I've always been used to people doing things for me and yet, I wasn't grateful at all. I really hate it when people take things occurring around them for granted. I know, this is contradicting. It sounds like I hate myself. In fact, I don't at all. I love myself a lot kay.

I also need to start planning about what I want. Since, it's already February and I have no aim or goals at all. How am I gonna live through the other days of my life not knowing what I want?

For prelims, I wanna do well and hopefully get a DPA (direct poly admission) and get myself in the design course at either NYP or TP. Or maybe, business course. But wait, I can't even pass my math, how am I gonna take business or even get into poly. -.- Omg, see! This is what I mean, I don't know what I want!!!! *screams*

For RoysonQuekJiHao!
Hey love, I want you to study hard after your season! I'm serious! We must get into NYP! After O's, we shall get a job and earn big bucks together. Start saving, buy your motorcycle then can ride me to school everyday. ^^ You know I'll always be here for you and supporting you in every way. I love you! (K)

For my girls!
You girls ah, stop being distracted! Must get focused and aim to do well for O's and N's. Don't no action talk only (nato)! We must start planning our time wisely. Study, play, exercise, boys, school, pms... I'm sure we can do this, girls. Together we'll be the best of the very best! Love youuuuuuuuuuuu. *flying kisses*

For my all readers!
I feel like I have no time and you think you have a lot?? I don't think so! Off your com and do something much more wise kay! Work hard, play hard! :)

(heart),
Jazreel.

P.S. I miss my braces. :(

'Cos she sees sunrise in his eyes.

Hello, I enjoyed my Valentines' day so much! Did you?

Baby got my drawing (above) and the heart-shaped print boxers I got for him. Hahaha, he said I drew his nose too big, LOL. But he still like it very very much! Omg, this is one of the best pencil drawing I've ever done. Right, we continued watching the movie which till now, we haven't completed and it's only a 2 hour plus movie. Aiyoooooooo. Had dinner and then we went to soak in the warm pool for about an hour. Maven cooked Ramly burgers for all of us then mum came home with hokkien mee for supper! :) Fell asleep soon after... I heard baby snoring ah! So loud, but I like! Hehehe.

Baby left for home in the morning then I met him, Lowell, Kokping, Rina and Baiyong later at mac at noon to study. On my way there, I saw this old woman who was carrying such huge heavy bags and one of her wrist was injured. I felt so sorry for her that I helped her with her bags and walked her to the bus stop :)

Later, we ate then went to amk library to study for social studies. Baby highlighted all the important points that I need to remember for the test. Thanks love! We all went our seperate ways after getting stationery from Popular. While walking towards amk hub to take 262 to Bishan Park, baby and I this poor injured white dog near the bakery. We felt so sorry for it that we followed it to the staircase downstairs the block. I called mum and dad but no one answered. I wanted to bring it home. I told baby to go get some dog food for it while I waited. But but but, suddenly this fat ugly heartless woman with oily hair and horrible pigmentation came towards me and kicked the dog. I scolded her and she shout at me that that was her dog. Bloody hell. I'm damn irritated/pissed/annoyed that there's such people on earth. Evil, evil, evil. Just plain evil! >:( Took a bus to Bishan Park and then, baby and I saw a half-naked man using a used coca-cola bottle to scoop the water from the pond and bathed himself with it.

These incidents that happened today right before my very eyes made me realise how fortunate I am to be having such lovely parents who worked so hard to support this family and have provided me with everything I wanted. I swear I wouldn't ask for much anymore, I'll cherish everything I have now, forever. (Including you, baby) I'll study hard and earn as much money so that hopefully when baby and I get married, we don't have to suffer in poverty or what so ever problems that would have to be dealt with money. But I know, with baby here, we'll overcome every obstacles and hurdles together. No matter how hard life would be, as long as baby and I are here for each other, everyday would be a beautiful day. Right, love?

I love you with every breath, baby.

Jazreel.

I love you, you love me.

I love you,

you love me.

We are one big family.

With a great big hug and a kiss from me to you.

Won't you say you love me too!

Isn't this pic cute?

Heh.

I drew it with some application on my phone known as Flipbook Lite.

I'm gonna head to the shower now then knock out on my bed.

Yayyyyy, can't wait to see my baby tomorrow.

Awww~

Love my baby & girlies & "boyies",

Jazreel!

Mot.

Woke up bright and early only to head to Ben's for tuition. Went to Ham's for awhile then met the girls and we went to Bugis to shop. Soon after, they came over to my place for dinner, the boys and Rina came over too! We had barbeque food and string noodle. Right, I've nothing much to blog about. Oh yes, I'm gonna meet baby tomorrow. Hehee... Bishan Park! :)

Hope you guys who came over had fun!

Love,

Jazreel. 

Zoom.

My life is revolving like a circle which never stops spinning and I find it so hard to keep pace. Some say that life flies past real fast and indeed, it sure does. Ever felt like 24 hours a day isn't enough? Or wished that we were robots with feelings who never needed to sleep or eat? Well then, I'm glad to say that you aren't wasting your life away because you've been really busy.

What I want you guys to know is that to never forget about the ones who loves and cares for us. No matter how caught up we are with our lives, we should take time out and spend it with people who we enjoy being with. It could be the least exhausting thing you could do. Like taking a walk or jog in the park and/or catching a movie with your friends. Also, never forget to show and tell them how much they mean to you in your lives!

Yes, Valentines' Day is around the corner. Start thinking about the special person you would like to spend it with. It could be anyone. Don't feel shy about asking them out. Even if you were rejected, at least you knew you tried. It could also mean giving little gifts.

Remember; it's the thought that counts, not how huge or expensive your gift may be.

Okay, shoots. I don't even know why I type all these. Anyway, I hope it helped you guys.

Don't get why people created these Nikon Cameras?
Right click on the picture above, save it and zoom in.
You'll find out!

Tata!

Loveeeeeeeeeee,
Jazreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelll.

When all seems wrong.

Hey, I would like to tell you guys a story about someone I know very well. I hope you guys would learn from this.

Her heart stopped the moment he told her those words. She knew, deep down inside him, it wasn't true. It was a moment of anger and fiery. No matter how hard he'd tried, somehow there always seemed to be a problem.

She decided to give him the cold shoulder or silent treatment, smashing the things around him, telling herself that she's just letting off steam. She'd thought by doing so, she would get his attention. As a matter of fact, she did but those were methods coming from the wrong directions. This wasn't the first time. He wants so much to let her know that that was wrong, however, she seemed to be in her own world. He couldn't get to where she was.

Until one fine day, the truth came haunting and ripping her inside. Like a thunder bolt that had struck her directly, she finally saw how much he had loved her. In her dreams, she saw herself as another person. Someone she knew but yet, had changed so much to the point she feels so ashamed of herself.

From a far, she saw their relationship on the verge of breaking. Knowing that if she had not done something fast, she would lose him forever. Like a heart that needs a beat, he was her strength, her courage, her passion, her everything.

She saw the tiny ray of light glowing in her dark room. She learns that loving someone is being the best person she can be for him by knowing what he wants and what he doesn't. He hated to see her life revolving around him and only him. She knew it long before but just couldn't help herself to stay away from him.

She decides to study hard and this will help her to concentrate and focus in the later months as the national examinations are approaching. She tells herself that she would learn and study. Knowing that by doing this, she can direct her attention somewhere else and would also be able to be there when he were to need help in his studies.

She knows that fixing this relationship would be hard. It'd take a lot of time and effort for the both of them to get past this hurdle.

She hopes they could get over this problem and would be determined to fix this relationship together. She once took an oath and told herself that she would never leave him when he were to be faced in adversity. She will try her very best to solve every problem, no matter how hard it gets.

She knows that both of them are committed and truly love each other, this will all work out in the end.

His confidence in her is shaken
His trust in her is fully broken
Their past happiness seems forgotten
And it is her who allowed it to happen

So, sorry needs to be spoken
For she know that he is heart brokened
But she hope his heart will soften
And somehow, one day she will be forgiven

(heart)
Jazreel.

Because my love for you keeps growing stronger.

Love can brighten our day,
but love can also be filled with shades of grey.

Love can make us stay,
but love can also force us to walk away.
Love can be gentle and gay,
but love can also be fierce as they say.

My days you have made brighter,
because you fill them with much laughter.
My heart you have made warmer,
because you care for me and our future.
My life you have made happier,
because you make everything sweeter.
My feelings are stronger than ever,
because you make me love you like no other.

Happy 3rd anniversary, baby.
I love you, Roy.

(heart),
Jazreel.

The Notebook

I know, I've neglected this blog for far too long. A sincere apology to those people whom would come by and check if there's any new posts. Thanks. Oh right, the picture above is a movie which was last screened in 2004. I was over at Veronique's place and she saved it in a thumbdrive for me. I've watched it, it's brilliant and I uploaded it in my phone! It has won 11 awards and 7 nominees. I just thought it would be nice if I shared this with everyone. :)

Oh yes, I've been really busy with almost everything. Went to town with baby on Thurs night to shop then knocked out the minute I got home. Some of you guys in my school would spot Mr Pillai filming me with the vid cam. Don't be alarmed, it's no biggie. Just be patient and wait, you'll see. 

"When we help others, we are helping ourselves; The Boomerang Principle."

Jazreel.

Life lessons.

Hi everyone, I was surfing the internet when I came across some valuable stuffs from wikihow.

"Jealousy is a combination of fear and anger: fear of losing something and anger that someone is "moving in on" something that you feel only belongs to you."

~~~

Do you know that saying "I love you" in different tones can mean differently?

Check it out here.

Hope you enjoy reading these stuffs.

Lurve, Jaz.

A moment like this.

The party at my place was a blast yesterday. Thanks to my dad who barbeque-d most of the food for us and my mum too, who bought all the food. & of course, all those people who made this party so wonderful. After everyone filled their tummies, we headed over to play pool. Soon after, my brothers, Kamler, Lowell, Zuokuan, Laura, Rina, Baiyong, baby and I went to swim and we played some challenge thingy which was damn tiring but fun! :) Laura, Sera, Amanda, Weijie and Yusheng left soon after. 

Later, my parents brought all of us to Prata House for supper!!! Yipeee~ Then my parents sent all of them home. :) Ham stayed over! We karaokeparty-ed, made doodle thingys on miniclip then we decided to go to bed.

Woke up and had steamboat for lunch. The nicest thing I had was the Cheese toufu my maid fried. Damn nice, even better than the ones from school! In the evening, Dad send Ham home then we headed over to Gram's. Had yummy and sumptious reunion dinner, & jelly which my uncle made for dessert. 

 

Whoa, I had so much so fun! Wee wee wee~~ 

I hope you guys out there have a very happy chinese new year and like every kid would wish for; lots of ang baos!!!!!!!!

Gong Xi Fa Cai, Wan Shi Ru Yi!

Lovex.

❤

By the lake with it's warm air,
you run your fingers thru' my hair.
Into each other's eyes we quietly stare,
a little kiss follows here and there.
Love and tenderness simply flare,
so joyful the moments we have to share.
Sweet hearts we are in this beautiful love affair,
no one can dispute we are the most loving pair.

I love you, baby.
Jazreel.

Hello, I've nothing much to blog about actually. Oh yes, I've lots of homework from school and tuition. & bloody Deleon tripped me during History remedial today and I landed on my bum bum with a huge bruise on my shin in a mermaid posture. I know, freak the bloody frog. Kidding la! Aiyooooo, I doubt anyone is even reading this. -.-

Jazreel.

It's you and me against the world.

I know I haven't been here regularly. I'm just so lazy and tired whenever I'm back from school which would be around 9om/10pm. I had been staying back to study and that's good 'cause I get to finish my homework and revise for the other subjects. Brilliant isn't it? I've decided the polytechnic of my choice. What I really like about NYP is that it's so effing near to my home and I could wake up later for class. But I really like TP which is far from my home, very. I'm really determined to take the Diploma in Apparel Design & Merchandising. It's superbly interesting and the facilities there is good! Oh freak, O's first. I've to study doubly hard to bring my L1R4 from 31 to <15. Shoots. :x

Alright, I guess no one would even be reading this. Oh well, I gotta go for my piano class now. See you guys around.

XO.
Jazreel.

What I did during the weekends...

Jazreel.

Standing on a rope, 3000 metres above the ground. I feel so small.

I know, it's 4 January and I still haven't wished everyone Happy New Year.

Baby and I were at marina bay for countdown. We waited for 2 and a half hours just to catch the fireworks and it was all worth it. The fireworks were exploding right in our faces. Zomg, I felt so scared. Haha. Since it was our 2nd month anniversary too, we decided to head to Bishan Park. Went home really early in the morning then knocked out on my bed and fell into a really deep sleep.

Woke up pretty late and had Teppanyaki for lunch at Hub. Got stationery and my contact lens then met baby at Central. We caught Seven Pounds. The story line is very mundane in the beginning but you'll get to know more in the 2nd hour. It's very touching. Then, we went for dinner and baby sent me home.

Term 1 Week 0. What's this? Nonsense. I got caught for nails and was seperated from the rest. Wasted time walking back to the new site. Heard enough of the principle for the entire morning. Ran through some admin stuffs. & gosh, I can't find my health booklet. Shoots. Went for lunch at Prata house then went back to watch the boys play. I fell asleep while watching them. Lol. Too tired already. Baby and I headed to his place so he could take his bath before going for dinner. After everything, baby sent me home again. :)

Headed to town. Got my shoes and stuff. Went to Bishan Park then home.

Baby came over at noon to watch Prison Break with me and somehow, my lappie can't read the epis. It's so annoying. Soon, Joanne came over and she passed me Christmas present. Then we all slacked and threw my stuffed toys around. Lol. I walked baby to the bus stop unreluctantly. Not long after baby left, Joanne left too. Then I was so bored and tired and dying from the cramps, so I went to sleep. Then now, I'm here.

I gotta go to bed early. I shall go and pack my bag now.

TTYS.

Love,
Jazreel.

Bye 2008.

Greetings living beings, I just painted my nails bubblegum pink with shimmers in it! :) Weijie bought that nail colour for me!

Baby and I went to the polyclinic yesterday. After getting my queue number, we waited for quite awhile to register. We decided to go get something to eat since we still have to wait for a few hours according to the lady at the counter. Caught Yes Man after eating. It's pretty hilarious, not bad! We walked back to the clinic and guess what!! It's closed! :O Since I didn't felt that horrible in the end, baby sent me home. :)

I woke up early and head to the showers. Mum drove Maverick and I to school. Maverick headed for his orientation camp while I headed to watch the boys play. Before the match started, Laura, Weijie and I ran about the school to look for Maverick. Somehow after awhile, we started running about for some reason and we thought how ridiculous to run infront of the juniors. We found my brother and we headed back to the indoor court. Otw, we bumped into Maris' players. So, the boys lost. Laura, Weijie and I are still very irritated about the man who told us to give 2 points to Maris and he accused us of not paying attention. Seriously, what nuisance and nonsense!! Lowell, Kok Ping, Baiyong, Wai Kiong, Weijie, baby and I went to Semb Hill Food Centre to have our lunch then headed home. :)

Alright, the year is about to end in approximately 25 hours? I ought to do some reflection.

I feel that I have slept through the entire year and I feel quite lost about practically everything. Studies, I hardly did any revision. (Horrendous)
Piano, I flunk my grade 8 exam. (Failure)
However, I got closer to most of my friends and girlies.
Some exceptions though. I'm really disappointed about that. I tried so hard yet all I get is a what-the-hell-are-you-doing-here look from you when I bumped into you at school. I never thought this would happen. You would just disappear and pop out of nowhere whenever you like it. Do you treat all of your friends like door mats? Come to us only when needed. Bloody hell. :|
I'm so freaking pissed.

I have to start working harder, real harder.
I've to keep myself away from distractions is would be so hard for me to do so.
Urghhhhhhhh, freaking O's.

Jazreel.

Look at how the stars shine for you.

Hello everyone. I'm sick. The viruses are setting in after like what (looks at fingers) 5/6 days hanging out with another sick person. B, if you see this, I'm kidding only laaaaaa. Okay so, both of us are sick, very sick. Baby has lost his voice. :( Aiyoooooooooo.

Yesterday, baby and I met for dinner. Then we headed down to East Coast Park. Gazed at the stars by the beach. :) Baby sent me home soon after and he cabbed home.

Damn, I'm too sick to go on. I shall go and lay on my bed now. :(

Love,
Jazreel.

Merry X'mas to all.

Alright, Christmas is over then it'll be the dawn of a new year which means schools starting. Yayyyyyyyy, I wanna wear my "durian puff"uniform. Okay so, I had a busy week. 

On tues, I can't remember what I did but I'm sure it took up the whole entire day. Oh right, I packed my room. 

On wed, it was christmas eve. My entire family, except for the maid, left for Mount Ophir in Malaysia. So, I went to town alone to get some stuffs. I shopped for 4 hrs alone w/o rest just to look for candy canes. I swear, my feet has blisters after wearing the crocs pumps. It sucks, don't ever get it. If you do have, lubricate your feet before wearing them. After all, it's still "rubber", you know. Met baby after hurting my feet on my own will and we head to my place to change to flip-flops. We slacked and when we were about to leave, god decided to give Singapore a heavy downpour. Since, we still had 10mins walk after reaching the bus stop opp Springleaf, we decided to cab down. We got there just about time for dinner. Caught The Little Nonya while some of them were playing mahjong and some others were busy playing the dices. Baby was sick so we left early. But we got lost in Springleaf estate for an hour and 20 mins that when we finally found our way, we met the rest at the bus stop. -.- Went to Bishan Park for awhile then cabbed home. 

On thurs (Christmas), baby came over to my place then we watched teevee and I took hours to get ready to go out. Since it was very late already, we decided to just go somewhere near for dinner. Ended up at Prata House and we saw Chengni, Jason and Rachel. The girls came over with mini candy canes. How sweet! :) Came home soon after and watched tv again. -.- Then baby had to go home and I walked him to the bus stop. 

On fri, met baby and Lowell for lunch and then head to school to watch them play their match. Went for dinner at S-11 then head home. My family got back, Maverick and Dad are sick. Thank goodness, I didn't join them. Wahahaha, I laughed at them when they told me it was horrible. LOL. 

P.S. I know I know, this is a long post. Anyways, I've decided that I'll blog about my week every weekend, rather than having to blog everyday. :) Saves time, you know. My O's are coming in less than a year. Oh, that reminds me! Did anyone did/lost their holiday homework? 'Cause, I didn't and I've misplaced them. Prolly, it's already out of the thrash can about to get recycled. Alright fret not, we'll all just not do and beg the teachers to give us more time. Then, we could all discuss and provide each others answers. Set?? 

I have to get back to my life now. (PH's quote)

Love,

Jazreel.

Today is a better day. :)

Repulse Bay Beach (Hong Kong)

HEY YOU! I just got out of the showers not too long ago. I had a horrible night last night. One of my nostrils was up with blocked nose and the other was runny. It's super difficult to breathe so I breathed through my mouth and fell asleep for like 10 minutes and woke up later 'cause my mouth was dry and thirsty. WTH?!?!?! I finally went to sleep peacefully at 7am and woke up at 12pm with really swollen eyes. At around 3pm, I met baby at his house bus stop and we went through Bishan Park to take the bus down to Junction 8. Went to get some food then head to the library. Dad fetched me later while B left for his competition. Had dinner at Ikea and bought lots of stuff.

Poor baby. :'( He went all the way to (somewhere far) only to find out that the spotlights at the competition area was spoilt so the match was postponed. Aiyooooooooooo.

I shall end here.

Love,
Jazreel.