Jazreel's

Beauty in the breakdown

2009-07-27T22:57:00.001-07:00

Ohyes, again -.- I haven't been here for awhile and blogspot is acting weirdly again.. It's been studying, fleaing, partying, movie, baby, girls.. & yeah, sch was kinda slack tday. We kept talking 'bout food during mt. So as soon as sch ended, Laura, Amanda, Angeline, Kokping, baby and I went to Swensens! Hahaha, bake rice. Omg, the thought of orhni suddenly came to my mind. So anyway, everyone left to do their own stuff while baby and I went to catch The Haunting at Connecticut. It was fucking scary can! Plus, there were 2 girls beside us screaming their heads off. Wtf. Go catch it if you wanna pee in your pants. Kidding. We went over to my place after that. Wahahaha, I had a great day. & SS test is postponed! ^^ Gna shower and get my beauty sleep. Sweetdreams!

XO.

Beauty in the breakdown

2009-07-27T22:57:00.000-07:00

2009-07-27T08:47:00.000-07:00

Relink:

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It beats.

2009-07-17T10:51:00.000-07:00

0204 hours

I've had a tiring week after spending long hours in school. It's been physically and mentally exhausting but at least, I managed to catch my breath. And yes, that's what I should've done. So anyway, tuition is on tomorrow at 9.30 am! Holy mama !@#$%^&* It's kinda silly that I realizeI've to go to bed NOW. I'ma head out for a study date with baby..

BUT first, I'ma go to sleep and have a good night rest!

Sweet dreams (L)

Broken

2009-07-14T09:23:00.001-07:00

It's late and I can't go to sleep. I've alot on my mind now and I just can't find a way to get over it. I just have a tendency to run away, build a wall around me and grab anything around me which makes me feel secure whenever something goes wrong. Dear god, please give me the strength to pull through this because I know I have to stay strong and stand tall now. I don't wanna go through the torture of those restless sleepless nights.

Baby, where're you?

If you can't hold it tight tonight.

2009-07-08T06:47:00.000-07:00

Can someone please tell me how do I upload voice memos from iphone to the lappie?!?!? Just when I thought pinky's the best.. After school, some of us went to catch the drama students solo piece. It was amazing! I'm so glad that we've such brilliant talented people in Peirce :) On the way home, I met hung on the bus. He gave me some tips for oral! Hahaha, thanks la nkf. So, Mav and I head to the gym today! We ran and ran... My body's aching so badly now. Babyyy, I want massage!!!!!!! Kay, I shall go lie on my bed now. Tata.

When I'm feeling an echo inside my chest,

Jazreel.

Pinky Phonie is awesome!

2009-07-06T10:26:00.001-07:00

I'm back, just as I promised :)

Oh right, I've been relying on pinky so much that I could lie on my bed and waste my Saturday away. Pinky has absolutely everything kay! Facebook, Msn, Webbies, Games, iPod, Movie Trailers, Youtube, Scabble... etc. You name it, you got it! Weeeeeeeee..

Did I mention that I finally managed to send Mr Yeo my oral recording of the passage thru' my phone via e-mail? Cool right. Everything in one. Kay, I shall stop bragging about how good pinky is. Wait till you get one.. You'll end up like me! Hahaha. Gna go to sleeeeeppp. Goodnight bloggie (K)

Xo.

2009-07-06T09:53:00.000-07:00

Hi bloggie, I know I haven't been blogging. Sorry :'( I'm just too lazy to blog about my day everynight... Fine, I'll blog using my phone kay! ^^ Oh yes, I've been rather lazy due to my iphone fantastic functions. It's damn awesome. I (heart) you, pinky phonie.

Brb, gna pack back! (L)

If you're breathing, you're winning.

2009-06-30T08:08:00.000-07:00

Does anyone still drop by here?

I know I've neglected this blog for far too long. Since, it's been abt a month since my last post, I shall talk about my month. Well, I hadn't done much during the hols. It's been just school, tuition, out, home, sleep, eat.. Just like any other day without proper rest. Okay, I just think I'm not gna talk abt my hols.. Here's the thing, my mind's blank.

I got a text saying...

"I feel like you've changed... ...you're not the Jaz I knew at KB Mac."

Do you know what it's like having a lack of motivation?
Do you know what it's like having trouble to enjoy the things that you used to?
Do you know what it's like to just cry yourself to sleep every night?
Do you know what it's like to feel that nothing seems to be worth doing?
Do you know what it's like to be so confused and directionless in life?

Why doesn't anyone out there seem to realise that I've been tearing up and building a wall around myself when day and night just comes and goes...

I'm struggling..
I'm so tired of pulling through another day.
Knowing that every night is just gna be a nightmare..

You're my saving grace.

2009-06-14T11:07:00.001-07:00

0200 hours

I'ma head to bed but thought I could finally drop by here for a lil' while. I 've had a rather tiring but fruitful week. I've had tuition everyday for this entire week. I've been going to bed only in the wee hours of the morning and wake up early to get ready for class. It's really exhausting and it's starting to 'cause problems in my health. Urgh. I've had acute heart pains and mum prolly would be taking me to the hospital for some check-up. I hope I don't have any weird complications or something. Pray for me kay! :)

Loveeeee,
Jazreel

Hortatory Message

2009-06-05T07:37:00.000-07:00

When a tri-tone woke me from my sleep this morning, I woke up to the most pother text. Hmm.. So anyway, Mum drove me to Ben's for tuition till 1. Later, Veron and I took a bus down to Wee Nam Kee for lunch. It's my first time eating there and it's so good. I'm gonna take baby there soon. Mmm... Some of the plans for the day changed. Instead, I went to Veron's and I helped pack some of the things from her old place and brought it back to where she is staying now. I've never been so dirty and covered in soot before but we had fun. & 9 year old Hakim, Veron's cousin, said this to me when he was playing with a paper puppet doll. "You wanna smell it armpit?" Hahaha, we burst out laughing.. Super funny. I had dinner with her family before heading home.

Tuition again tmr.. Chemistry! :) & I'll be meeting baby! *big smile*

Dad's buying supper!

XO,
Jazreel

In the movie of my life,

2009-06-03T07:42:00.001-07:00

I had diarrheoa the moment I was about to leave home for school. I gave it a miss which means I'll have to spend the entire day at school tmr, 9.45am to 4pm, doing else but art. I won't be bored doing something I love but then again, it all depends where my inspiration is from. No inspiration = no progress.

I took a day off from studying today. I was never the type that had to think about my life but I had to. If I hadn't, I wouldn't have realized I had lost myself to time and the emotional side of me.

Urgh, I'm so tired of all these nonsense. Nobody ever understands. This sucks.

I dig you, baby.

2009-06-02T09:50:00.000-07:00

Hahaha to my title! ^^ So, it was the 1st yesterday! & I was super excited since Saturday (I still am). I've been feeling really high these few days, weird. It was also strip-ey day. We had plans for sleepover but we didn't. Okay, my eyes, face, nose very pain :'( Stupidly, I've abrasion on my face (Hides in B's jacket) I'm so lazy to go for art tmr.. 3 hours.. Oh yes, another nonsensical incident. This morning, I woke up at 7.20am to shower and prepared to head to school. Then, when I was at the bus stop, I realised I got it all wrong. School was tmr, not today. Bloody hell wasted my precious sleeping timr can?!?!?! Met baby for lunch before he left for training + match :O I got home and left to town with my mum and dad for shopping! I bought.. a top and something for baby. So now, I'm superrrrrrrrr tired + sleepy + still a little bit high = sweet dreams + goodnight. (nonsense)

Nights la, Jazreel

His brown eyes tell his soul.

2009-05-28T04:55:00.000-07:00

Aiyer, I can't study! How? How? How? I wanted to memorize some chinese sentences and I ended up watching E! 'cause I can't concentrate. I can't keep up like this if not I'll surely flung my O's. Choy ah... Oh, talking 'bout that. L1R4: 22 I really need someone to spank me if I don't study. I'm totally not self-motivated = frustrating.

Anyway, I like the picture of baby (above).

I'm starving...

& someone said he wanna cook for me ah!

BIG SMILLLLLLLEEE

Love you too la (K),

Jazreel

If you see the wonder...

2009-05-24T08:46:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG OMG

I went on a shopping spree with mum today! I bought the neutrogena wave kit, ZA true white lotion and deep cleansing oil. Okay, the ZA true white lotion reminds me of ____. She and I went to Watsons and we saw the testing kit. I bought it and the next thing I knew I became WHITE!!! I know, damn sway but it shows that ZA products work. That's when I became a huge fan of ZA products 'cause it does wonders! ^^ Clear smooth skin... I tried out the wave thingy (above), it's damn cool and fun! I really had smoother skin after using it once. So, all girls out there! GO BUY!

P.S. I have no idea what to blog about so yeah... GO TRY IT! wave...

(-.-) + love,

Jazreel

My rhythm, soothing, like raindrops steady.

2009-05-22T07:28:00.000-07:00

I had a wonderful time with love today though we did not really do anything diff from the norm. It was just like any other ordinary day where he would come over and spend time with me and sometimes, my family. I guess I've started to learn to be more optimistic about life and not a pessimist like I used to be before.

Also, this saying "Everyday above ground is a good day." taught me to cherish every part of me that I have in my life now. I came across an article on a website recently. It talked about how people overlook and take most of the little things they have for granted. A good example is having a nice pair of clean shoes to wear to school everyday. In some parts of the world, young children were used to getting their feet burnt and hurt. Walking over hot lava ashes and shards of broken, hazardous objects lying around are part of their everyday lives. Rushes of being so blessed and fortunate filled my (heart).

Loving you (today, tomorrow, yesterday),
Jazreel

The litle things that make you mine.

2009-05-19T08:24:00.001-07:00

I'm just about to head to bed so I'll make it a quick one. I'm pretty fatigue for the past weeks and haven't rest well. I came home to take a nap and it felt like I haven't been sleeping for days. So niceeeeee :) Got ready and met baby to study!! I did Chemistry! We had dinner and walked around before heading home. Today is just like any other ordinary day but I feel so warm and happy. Aww. Shall head to bed! Nights.

It brings an indefinite sense of joy at the thought of just seeing your face.
I love you, baby (K)

Loving (you and the world),
Jazreel

Melancholy

2009-05-18T01:58:00.000-07:00

I can't help wondering whether I'm alone in feeling melancholy. Lately, I'm starting to find myself being so moody, sensitive and emotional. I could see myself seeing the world through my emotions and it can swing from one extreme to the other in another minute. Being so tuned into other people's feelings and needs, it's so difficult for me to draw myself back from others and define my own position. Also, worrying is something I do quite well and just a tendency to expect the worst.

Am I too full of self-pity or just getting upset over apparent nothings?

For One More Day

2009-05-18T00:39:00.000-07:00

1540 hours

Clammy

As I was sitting at my usual sit at Chinese class today, I can't help but stare out of the window and watch the world go by. Since it was rainy, there weren't anybody taking their morning jogs in the park. There was just rain and rain. Soon, I found myself stuck with some questions I could never find answers to. Would it even mean anything if I worked a little harder? Will it change my fate?". Is it really true that our lives and fate were already planned in heaven? When would I ever wake up from this dream that I've been dreaming for so long? So, what does life even mean? I'm sorry to make you start wondering about the answers to this questions and soon find yourself just sitting, staring out of the window. It's just a wrong time for me to get lost in my monotonous life. This sucks. I gotta get out of it.

Affection

2009-05-15T07:38:00.000-07:00

The words "Jazreel, you BETTER study or else..." came screaming in my head when I received my results. Obviously, it's so crappy that I'm too ashamed to speak about it here. I REALLY MUST START REVISING. So anyway, I was thinking of heading to the beach for a picnic with love tmr :) It's been quite a while since we did that due to the exam fever. Kay, guess I'll be back on Sunday. Tata!

Loveeee (you), Jazreel

2009-05-14T08:55:00.000-07:00

2356 hrs

It's been a long time since I last wrote a proper post for my almost dying blog. The timetable for tomorrow at school would be pretty slack, just checking scripts :O Talking bout that, I've received the grade for my english! English C5. I'm disappointed 'cause I was expecting myself to get an A grade. I flunk paper 2, 19/50 :( BUT I did well for oral! 32/40 :D Whoa, power right?

Due to the exam fever, I haven't been keeping up my exercise routine. I'm so weak and gaining weight now. Baby and I went for a jog at Lentor. At first, I felt pretty good but suddenly, I broke out with heat rash. It itched all over kay! & instead of trying to accompany him to exercise, I became a bloody burden... Then we went for a swim. I prefer the water more than land, really. Reminds me of how I used to wish I could be a mermaid even just for a day. Okay, I must go diving one day.

Omg, I think I'm freaking crapping in this post but who cares? I bet nobody would be reading this. So anyway, I'm gonna webbie with love.

Love (many many), Jazreel

2009-05-10T09:03:00.000-07:00

Happy Mothers' Day!

2009-05-09T12:55:00.000-07:00

You can see it in their eyes,

tender hugs and long goodbyes,

a love only mums and daughters know.

You can see it in their smiles,

through passing years and changing styles,

a friendship that continually seems to grow.

You can see it in their lives,

the joy each of them derives,

in just knowing the other one is there.

To care and to understand,

lend an ear or hold a hand,

and to celebrate the memories they share.

Not only once upon a memory,

someone wiped away a tear,

held me close and loved me.

Mum, I loved you yesterday, I love you tomorrow and everyday.

You were there for me on my first day of school, to hold my hand and give me courage to go.

You listened to me when I needed to talk, you talked to me when I needed to listen.

You let me go and learn from my mistakes.

You never left my side when I was feeling down, I knew you'd be there to pick me up.

I wish there was a way I could repay all the things you've done for me, but there's nothing great enough to repay the greatest mother of all.

Thank you, Mum dear.

XO,

Jazreel

2009-04-29T09:08:00.001-07:00

Tdy's papers were pretty ok. The atmosphere was rather tense when everyone started scribbling endlessly and putting all they've learnt into work. I seriously am excited for the O's though I'm not yet prepared (WOW) So, baby and I head to Queensway for curry chicken after school. Yummmmm :) Head home to rest then met again for jiding. Wahaha. I read thru' some of my cheena notes with baby's constant reminders to study hard. Every paragraph, one (K) Aww. Kay, I'm waiting for him to pompom. So longgggggg...

Many many (L),
Jazreel

P.S the first is 2days away!! hehehee, baby (K) Oh, Lynnnn too! Wahaha.

Why?

2009-04-28T04:02:00.000-07:00

'Why', the cause or intention underlying an action or situation.

'Trust', the trait of believing in the honesty and reliability of others.

'Fear', an emotion experienced in anticipation of some specific pain or danger usually accompanied by a desire to flee or fight.

You must be wondering why I'm starting this post with these 3 words. Well, being an extremely sensitive person, I tend to look beyond the surfaces of everything. It could even mean trying to understand the purpose and intentions of a person's actions/situations that could mean the least.

Am I starting to sound like I'm a psycho?

-No, I'm deep and looking at things from a diff perspective from the norm.

So now, do you find it really hard to know what I'm thinking about most of the time?

-Honestly, if I'm my own friend, yes (very).

I felt something or more of rather something bad(to me), more than half a year back. In the beginning, I thought nothing of it but somehow, this person's action is starting to make me believe that what I felt is true. Someone, the very least expected, hurting me whether realizing or not. These little incidents happened so many times before me. I just wonder if this person knows where to toe the line. I just can't bring myself to believe that it's true. It's happening...

Allowing without fear,

Jazreel

It's ourselves whom we conquer.

2009-04-20T05:58:00.000-07:00

What's up? I just did a lil' bit on math. The prelims are just 9 days away and I don't feel like I've started revision when I did quite a lot already. I can still remember quite a lot from the various topics taught last year. But still, I can't be complacent. I gotta work hard towards my dream and that is to roam the world with the person I love. I'm gonna have to be super loaded with cash, knowledge and be street smart.

But sometimes, I wonder if I would ever have the guts to leave for another country without my parents. Other than overseas camps, I haven't been far away from their sight. To me, they are not just parents but my best friends whom I can fully rely on. I love it that they're are always so understanding and they hardly ever raise their voices unless they hit the roof to the max. Anyway, I have to start to learn to be self-reliant. I'll leave with the first few words by Edmund Hilary when he reached on top of Mount Everest.

He said, "It's not the mountains we conquer, but ourselves."

Love, Jazreel

Lights will guide you home

2009-04-18T05:45:00.000-07:00

When he tries his best but he doesn't succeed
When he gets what he wants but not what he needs
When he feels so tired but he can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

& the tears come streaming down his face
When he loses something he can't replace
When he loves someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worst?

& high up above or down below
When he's too in love to let it go
But if he never tries he'll never know
Just what he's worth

Tears stream down his face
He promises her he'll learn from his mistakes

I'm the happiest girl to meet someone like him. He's been putting a facade so well that everyone doesn't see past it and even sometimes, he starts to believe it. Nobody really knows him, just the mask he puts on. Being a guy makes it harder for him as well. All he could do is to just find a way to push through and continue the act. I should have known how he felt. Pushing on and on. I truly am the most fortunate girl. & yes, it's amazes me that I finally understand by listening to his favorite band. Baby, you know I love you so. Love you so...

Loving you,
Jazreel

Where she follows, you'll go.

2009-04-18T04:19:00.000-07:00

Lately, I've been under so much stress that I actually found myself crying in my sleep so many times. What's wrong?

If only I had a clue to who your friends are, I wouldn't be feeling what I'm feeling right now.
If only I knew what it's like loving me then I wouldn't make it hard.
If only I knew how hard it is to read my expressions.
If only I knew how much you worry you won't be able to see my face light up again.
If only I could take this nightmare away.
If only I'm not gonna break down right now.

This is my achilles' heels. It's like being at the highest point of the roller coaster and this feeling is the gravity, robbing away my energy so quickly. You're the only one who could pick me up and pull me right on track. I really hate that this just sucks the life out of me. I hate being so extremely vulnerable to this despite being able to stand strong even when my friends and I fall out. I guess it's because I know it myself that that was something I had control over. For this, I just fail no matter how hard I try but I'll never ever give up trying. I know there would be a way to fight this but it's just so hard. So very hard, baby. If only you knew...

Nobody said it was easy,
no one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh, take me back to the stars.

Into fragments and pieces,
Jazreel

Nonsenseeeeeeeeeeee

2009-04-17T08:31:00.000-07:00

I'm so tired when I barely did anything much today. I won't be going for cip with the girls tmr because of tuition -.- Urghhhhhh, this is nonsense. I've nothing else to blog about. This post is crap. Anyway, that's me in sec 1 in the picture above. Eeyyyyyeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Love, Jazreel

2009-04-16T08:33:00.000-07:00

Omgomgomg, a lady buggie flew onto my nose!

Rolie Polie Olie.

2009-04-16T07:13:00.000-07:00

It has been a pretty long day for me. There was remedial after school and I had tuition in the evening. As I'm typing this, I'm watching a very nice cheena show called Royal Embroidery. It's so touching. Oh yes, it's baby Zoe in the pictures above. She's so adorable. She really knows how to pose for the camera right! It's gonna be another long day tomorrow again. 16th annual sports day... Baby's gonna come over after school! Hehee. I might be heading to hub after sports day with the girls to catch 17 Again :)

Love, Jazreel

Which side of the scale?

2009-04-15T07:59:00.000-07:00

As I was typing this entire chunk, I realized that I would always start with the topic "school" in every of my post. I mean school was meant to be fun and exciting for everyone. Well, it still is but my life is starting to get monotonous. I'm searching for a way to break the cycle and probably, pick up a new skill like learning how to play the acoustic guitar. However, any of my plans to add colors to my life are always ruined by the ever so scary O's. Hence, I can't freaking wait for it to be over! I would have the time in the world to do anything I want! Even if it means, walking in slow motion from one side of town to the other while the rest are hurrying to grab a coffee from Starbucks during their lunch breaks in hope that caffine would wake their senses and give them the drive to work harder than a robot. Wait a minute, ain't that totally ridiculous? I'm sure I'd have something much better to do than that! *evil laugh*

Friend's friend, a sincere thank you.

(If you're reading this) Baby, I'm really sorry for the times I've been so anal, needy and stubborn. I've been trying my very best to not get those over me and it really saddens me that sometimes, I just let the emotions slip without sparing a thought for you. Whenever we have a tiff, my face would start showing (you know what I mean) I get really mad at myself and wishing so badly if only you could see how disappointed I am at myself for failing to make things right every time. Nevertheless, you've stood by me and never fail to be here. Be it, to share those happy moments of my life together or just watch me pour my feelings, hold me tight and wipe those tears ever so with grace. Like I've said before, "I love you for the part of me that you bring out." and "Love gives us strength and courage." I love you so much, baby. *Big kiss* (K)

I think I'm falling ill, my throat tickles. I'ma pack my bag and lie on the bed. & shit, there's tuition tomorrow. Urgh, what a burden.

P.S. My posts are indeed getting more and more wordy. I've not been taking pictures! Oh and Hi Audrey, I know you're reading this :)

Love, Jazreel

I should know that you're not gonna change.

2009-04-13T07:30:00.000-07:00

School went past rather quickly today. Oh man, talking 'bout school. I need inspiration for my drawings. I gotta head out! Urgh. It's so frustrating to know that without an inspiration, I wouldn't be able to meet the deadline. & guess what? So many people aren't on task! C'mon, we can do this!

Deadline: 21st April'09

Hmm, I wonder why it's called deadline. Does it mean we're gonna be at the line of death? Wtfff, this is so random.

I happened to know somebody who treasures friendships and they really do mean a lot to him. He has a girlfriend who's pretty much sensitive. It really hurts her to see that he tells so much more things to her friends instead of her. Hmm, what should she do? How should she be feeling?

The words in italic might help in my drawings. Please do me a huge favour by tagging me the answers to the questions on my tagboard? Thanks a million! :)

Love, Jazreel

Bachelors & Masters.

2009-04-12T09:59:00.000-07:00

YES YES YES YES YES

LASALLE will be the one I'm aiming and yearning to be enrolled in, so badly.

Fashion design, wooooohooooooo.

I'll put my all in art now.

Oh, lasalle lasalle lasalle...

I'm coming!

Love, Jazreel

Menage A Trois

2009-04-11T23:35:00.000-07:00

15o2 hours

I'd be lying if I said I got hit by stress. (Okay, not really) Rather, I'm stressing out more on why I haven't even started revision. (Yes, I get it now) I'd always say I'll study but end up beaten by distractions and temptations. It could be as simple as just looking at my comfy bed and just lay down for a lil' while but end up falling asleep :$

Anyways, my family helped boost the economy by going for a shopping spree at town last evening. I bought shoes, flip-flops and body wear which just so happens to get me to be a member of sloggi. How's that? -.- We picked baby up and head to my place. We studied for a itsy bitsy while before having fun.

Guess what? My family (including baby) is heading to haji next week! Wahaha. & 'hot fudge' the next weekend right baby? ^^ I'm so looking forward for family fun weekends :)

Love, Jazreel

She'll sing...

2009-04-11T09:48:00.000-07:00

I decided to drop by just before I off the laptop. Life's getting harder these days but it'll all get better in time right? I know there's a lot for me out there to do but somehow, I feel I just don't. I'm starting to panic as each day passes and the O's drawing nearer. Where do I start?

She did everything to try and fit in,

but the others just couldn't seem to get past all the things that mismatched.

& she would close her eyes when they left and she fell down the stairs.

The more that they joked and the more that they screamed,

She retreated to where she is now.

Though she smiles, there is something just hiding and she can't find a way to relate.

XO,

Jazreel

Demeaned, constricted or attacked?

2009-04-06T06:54:00.000-07:00

The day went by rather quickly considering the fact that my lids were so heavy after staying up late last night drawing. I wasn't really drained off after the 2.4km run but was finding difficulty breathing. Oh hommies, thanks for your concern! :)

She's like a human black hole which suddenly comes out of nowhere and just suck the life out of me. No matter how hard I try to stay positive and remain strong, her negativity ends up just completely draining me. Feeling exhausted more than ever, I sense prickly off-putting vibes, I just can't wait to get away from.

I find that the "universe" uses negative people as the way to get me to move on whenever I'm getting comfortable in a situation that isn't challenging anymore. It's like a prod that I should be focusing more on my dream rather than just getting caught up in a nice, comfortable routine that isn't getting me anywhere. If I didn't have these people, then I'd probably just stay. So, sometimes I'm really grateful to these people because they're giving me the "kick" that I need.

I'll smile and remain completely detached.

p.s. I'm sorry that my posts are getting wordy as the days passes.

Love, Jazreel.

I can see it there within my reach.

2009-04-05T08:15:00.000-07:00

I caught Shinjuku Incident with the boys last night. I didn't know it was rated nc16 till we were stopped by the ushers. The movie is so damn gruesome, violent and brutal. I advise people who aren't used to seeing slashes of blood and body parts flying everywhere not to watch! Urgh. Overall, I'd say Jackie Chan and his partner are awesome to produce such a movie which got everyone glued. It kind of reminds me of Final Destination 3 though. I'm so dreading 2.4km run tmr. I'm gonna literally fall short of breath in just a few metres. By the way, there's something that's making me laugh so badly right now!!! Hahaha, I'm not gonna tell you! Secret la!

I'm ready for the pressure,

the drama and the pleasure.

Got my whole life here in front of me,

I'm taking over when I hit the streets.

Love, Jazreel

High rise, overtime.

2009-04-03T08:48:00.000-07:00

Watching the world pass, I'd thought I've got it figured out. Sometimes, I do get to the point where both choices are not possible but what can I do. People do make wrong presumptions right? The word 'regret' is huge deal to me. It's because I know that I must've been happy or clear that if I were to make a decision then, it's the best for me and everyone around me. Here's the thing, I've so much on my mind now.

In this frenzy outta control.

I'ma stay in pursuit, do what I gotta do.

XO,

Jazreel

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.

2009-04-02T07:42:00.000-07:00

It's the 2nd of April. Looking back, time really flies. I gotta start bucking up and study real hard. You know, I've never kept my words to this. I get outta bed early for school everyday and by the last lesson, I feel like I've just ran a psycho marathon. Sometimes, life just gets too much in the way to do things we really want. Then, adds up to our wish list that we seldom get to make it come true before we die. I just wonder why there are sayings like, "Wishes do come true". As I got older, I finally realize that fairy tales are nothing but lies. Poor young innocent minds.

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns.

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,

We'll close our eyes and escape this town for a little while...

Love, Jazreel

Special

2009-03-31T08:23:00.000-07:00

School wasn't that bad only that I was weak in the knees because my cramps hurt so badly. I took a cab home and had a nice rest before going out for dinner with baby. So anyway, I just got out of the shower and I'm watching the tele as I'm typing this. It's the 1st tomorrow!!

On a yacht baby we would sail,
to an island where we'd say I do.

xo,
Jazreel

2009-03-30T07:19:00.001-07:00

My insides hurts, I'm dying...

The dawn is breaking.

2009-03-30T06:08:00.000-07:00

I hate being ill for the past week. My insides hurt so badly whenever I cough. I wanna get well fast! I've been pretty busy with life to blog the past few days. Anyway, the 1st is just 2 days away. *smiles widely*

Love, Jazreel.

2009-03-26T02:05:00.000-07:00

I missed school 2 days in a row and it's really making me restless. I wonder how I'm going to cope at school. Urgh. My temperature was really high for the past 2 nights and it's really amazing that when baby was here yesterday evening, it was rather low. I went to the doctor and was given 4 big bottles of medicine. Did I mention that I lost my voice? Wtff. I should rest now. Bye.

Put yourself in the shoes of the people around you.

2009-03-23T07:03:00.000-07:00

Karma's coming to get me, Veronique Enah Ham. After making fun of your voice, my voice is starting to become hoarse and going out of pitch like your's. Brrrr, my throat tickles :( Holiday assignments, revision, art sketches, getting not enough sleep... is practically driving me insane. I still have yet to complete the ace-learning tutorial or some anal assignment. I'm gonna do it after school with baby at the lab. Anyway, I'm on the phone with him now! Gonna go to bed real soon I guess.

"Love gives us strength and courage.."

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible

Look a little harder and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day

Just for you to ask her her name...

xo,

Jazreel

C'mon hommes, you can do it!

2009-03-22T09:33:00.000-07:00

All the best to the basketball boys and netball girls for their matches tomorrow. I wished teleportation was created in our century then I could watch both matches but I should be attending the netball girls and cheering on for the girl who rarely get her body hair off herself (inside joke) and her team mates. Kayyyy, all the best hommes!!!

Love youuuuuuuuuuu!

Especially to the one who plays pepsi cola 1,2,3 with me and never fails to laugh at my ridiculous reactions.

I love you, baby.

xo,

Jazreel

Move in a little closer.

2009-03-22T08:22:00.000-07:00

Granny was over last night when I was away at Mac with baby. She brought us her homemade Ngoh Hiang which is superbly delicious!! (When I typed Ngoh Hiang, baby texted me) :/ Kay, she left in the evening before my tuition started. I was extremely restless during tuition and my mind was practically shutting off. There's school tomorrow and I have to wake up really early so I shall head to bed now! Nights!

This is the best cheesecake ever from my neighbor.

"I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I am the only one who blows your mind."

xo,

Jazreel

He takes pride in showing her the way

2009-03-21T11:20:00.000-07:00

21st of March this year is the most mentally exhausting day ever. I woke up really early and Dad drove Maverick and I for tuition at about 10am. In the end, I stayed at Ben's place for tuition from 10am-4.30pm. How's that? 6.5 hours of tuition! C'mon, beat that man. It's so tiring having to do math sums all over again and each time, forgetting the formula to solve the question. Urgh!! Now the best part, I was over at Veronique's and I got to taste the cheese fondue and damn, it's so brilliant. Mmmm... Her mum invited me for fondue again next week. Yayyy! I left her place rather late and met baby to head to mac drive thru' to do up the assignments. Oh well, we still got distracted halfway but most of it is done! :) Oh, someone gave the cashier my lucky $1 note from my granny just because he was short of 5 cents :( He owes me (K) x 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

"I love you for the part of me that you bring out."

XOXO,

Jazreel

2009-03-20T07:45:00.000-07:00

I'm so tired and my body is starting to ache. Baby had breakfast over at my place while watching nba on tele. First, we actually had plans to do up our hols assignment and all that but we had no idea where to start. Hopefully, we'll get it done by tomorrow!! Love, if you're reading this, WE MUST! Oh, he just left after dinner. Then guess what? I was searching high and low for his keys and finally found them in the closet. I hid them and forgot where I left. Brrrr, tuition at 9AM at Ben's! Urgh, that's so freaking early :( Nehmind, I'll be seeing hammy!! Kay, I'll go get my beauty sleep now. Nights!

"I love you not only for who you are, but for what I am when I'm with you."

XOXO,

Jazreel

God Damn You're Beautiful

2009-03-19T03:39:00.000-07:00

It had been rather 2 busy days. Tuition, sleepovers, hang outs, dinner at Chomp Chomp... I woke up rather late and watched tele over lunch. My parents and sibs left for shopping while I was asleep -.- Oh yesterday, I found a really pretty cheesecake my neighbour made. It has a layer of strawberry jello and a strawberry heart in the middle. I ate half and baby ate half. There's still some in the fridge. The air-con is freezing me out! Kay, I'll go have dinner. Great job to the one I love, he got selected for Singapore Comb. Schools! Heheeee.

"She can't find the words to explain just how much you've got her going insane..."

XOXO,

Jazreel

Sibs

2009-03-17T00:43:00.000-07:00

Hello! I couldn't concentrate studying so I joined my brother to watch the tele. Then, we got bored switching the channels and went to have some jello. Hahaha, we were searching for something to do in the house and we realized that 2 person in the house was no fun to play hide-and-seek. Oh Maverick, hurry up come home from the bloody camp and play with us! As you can see, we started cam-whoring...

Freak, he pulled my hair :(

P.S. I still have yet to bring my brothers out for a movie and shopping. & love agreed to join us!

Off for tuition at Ben's!

XO,

Jazreel & Maven?

I'm studying! Oh my...

2009-03-16T22:34:00.000-07:00

I was doing Chinese close passages earlier. Surprised? Yes, I am too. I didn't expect myself to wake up for breakfast and study after watching some tele. Well, baby and I had plans to sun tan by the pool but it's postponed tomorrow because he has a friendly match later. Awww, take care of yourself! Don't injure your neck again. I'll see you after tuition kay, hopefully! Oh well, I'm gonna have lunch then continue studying and head for tuition in the evening. I'm glad I'm using my holidays wisely, are you?

XO,

Jazreel

NYC, here I come baby.

2009-03-16T00:19:00.000-07:00

The first day of term break wasn't so bad after all. I woke up rather early and met baby for breakfast. We ended up being an hour late for the essay workshop. Well, time passed rather fast till it was time for a source-based test. Let me tell you, I'm expecting myself to flung. Batu Puteh, urgh. It drizzled when class ended and I headed home with my cheapo $2 budget umbrella planed over from Shanghai. Hahaha, I'm catching The City while painting my nails anyway. Gosh! I must really crash Des's couch in Lon and fly to NYC together at the end of the year. Woohoo! Shoppingggggggg!

XO,

Jazreel

Felt by the heart

2009-03-14T21:56:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, we had CIP. Weijie and I had our cans filled while the rest were at Raiders. I stood under the hot sun and I have sun burn now. What's worst? I wore my watch and beads, there's the tan line! Urgh. Left with baby later and went home to rest. I managed to catch some sleep after watching The City and doing some other stuffs. I went to meet the boys to catch Race to Witch Mountain at night. Omg, I have Chinese tuition later and I haven't done my homework. Gonna take my lunch now and start doing. Toodles!

P.S. 10 years down the road, I'd would have a son that looks just like the boy in the picture above.

XO,

Jazreel

2009-03-11T20:59:00.000-07:00

I'm currently in the computer lab doing some tutorial on our hoilday homework -.- I'm webcaming with Amanda earlier. Hahaha, everyone in my class is coming online. :) I have Chem tuition laterrrrrrr. Kay, I shall go kiss some ass. Bye.

XO,
Jazreel.

2009-03-10T03:33:00.000-07:00

Happy Belated 78th Birthday Gong Gong!

School was pretty fine today. Oh, there was an a cappella performance during assembly and half-way through, everyone was asked to do a "night-fever-night-fever" dance move. In which, the host said the weather was hot and everyone should air their ARMPITS! Whether SHAVEN OR UNSHAVEN. :O Hahaha, some asses turned to look at me. Hmphffff! Anyway, at the end, they sang CRAZY by Britney Spears! Wahaha love, CRAZY LEH! Hehehe. Most of us were at yck stadium after school to attend the boys' prize giving ceremony. "2 seconds of glory" :) Left with Amanda later while the rest took the bus back to school. Okay, I'm starving. Bye.

XoXo,

JAZREEL

I'll stay strong even if the best falls.

2009-03-09T01:05:00.000-07:00

It's raining... (again) It's freezing cold. I got home early, took a warm bath and had lunch. At art class, I found out that everyone is ahead of me. They've done more than 6 - 10 sketches and I've barely even 2. I'm so gonna flunk. Well, at least I get to go to school. Hahaha. Guess what? The weather's good for a sweet afternoon nap and that's what I'm gonna do. Bye.

XoXo,

Jazreel

2009-03-07T21:33:00.000-08:00

After a long night, things are very slowly getting better.

Ham sent me this pic last night. I think it's damn cuteeeeeee.

Hahaha! Anyway, I'll be meeting Joelle in awhile to pass her some stuffs. Then, tuition at night. Urgh, chinese chinese chinese...

Oh well.

& yes, my BFF finally texted me yesterday!!!!!

Yipeeeeeeeeeeeee.

She's gonna come over during the hols and we're finally gonna do some stuffs together after so long, way too long...

6 days to term break.

Jazreel

Pessimism

2009-03-07T08:03:00.000-08:00

I've done the worst thing in my life. I've let everyone down and I know, it takes more than just an apology to make things right. I feel I'm born with a gray cloud over my head. I don't have the world all figured out. I've observed circumstances and made wrong presumptions about how the world functions. Disappointments, betrayal, failures...

This hurts.

Guilt.

2009-03-07T06:56:00.000-08:00

I hold it true, whate'er befall;

I feel it, when I sorrow most;

'Tis better to have loved and lost

Than never to have loved at all.

Jazreel

2009-03-05T09:44:00.000-08:00

Gosh, it's 1.46 am and I'm still awake!

Right, I'll get my contacts off and head to bed.

Morning call for love soon!

Night/Morning World.

Love,

Jazreel.

2009-03-05T05:58:00.000-08:00

I gave school a miss today. I had diarrhoea when I got out of bed in the morn. (My tummy's getting weaker. I can't take anything spicy, not even a little) Brrr... Oh yea, baby's rash worsened so he missed school too. I met him at noon then passed a form to Mr Chan at school. We went to the polyclinic to get a queue number and left for lunch at Sumo house. Then guess what? Baby's queue number passed because I took forever to finish my food. He was the last patient to see the doc. Sorry, love. We hanged out at the park and not too long after, he head to town to meet his friends and I went to meet Jan to pass him his things.

I've been really happy these few days. Thanks love and all my friends!

P.S. Credits to Laura for taking the pic above! :)

I wish everybody a great month ahead!

& the hols' are coming and it's time that all of us would head to the beach! :)

Oh, I can't wait.

8 days to term break.

(K),

JAZ.

I'm staring at my feet, my cheeks are turning red.

2009-02-28T23:52:00.000-08:00

I was out with the Omar family earlier and I just got home. I had rib-eye beef steak. Mmmm... Food was so-so only.

Urgh, the weather these days are making me sick. First, it was all sunny then rainy.

Gosh, I've tuition later.

Brrr... I guess I'll just go lie in bed and wait for baby's text. :) Bye!

Jazreel.

2009-02-28T07:15:00.000-08:00

All because two people fell in love.

HAMPIT

2009-02-28T00:22:00.000-08:00

Headed home with baby pretty early yesterday after school. We were supposed to catch Valkyrie with the free movie tix but there wasn't any time slot available to fit our schedule so yeah, he stayed till evening then he went home.

Then, I went over to Ham's. We didn't do much. Surfed the net together, bathed, had dinner... Then we were supposed to catch Before Sunset & Before Sunrise together but I was too tired that I fell asleep at 9! I woke up 2 hours later then read some mags and went back to sleep again.

Had tuition this morning over at Ben's. He gave all his students a treat. Ham and I had ban mian. It was good. Mum came to fetch Ham and I home. I'm currently thinking of what to do. Oh yes, I have chinese tuition homework to complete.

& my family would be going out with the Omar family tomorrow for lunch over at Mad Jack's! Yippppppeeeee. I'm gonna see little Zoe. She must be so adorable now. Awww...

Sup boys! Here's the pics I promised to post when I'm free.

Jazreel.

So much more.

2009-02-24T02:46:00.000-08:00

We'll stay strong, nothing can bring us down.

Without conscious thought, this chronic habit of mine led to over-reliance on one-person. I finally realized the importance of not being over-attached and to talk honestly and supportively with one another about practical and positive solutions that will allow both of us the room to grow individually within this partnership.

"Both of you paddling your own canoe, side-by-side, rather than the same canoe together; the space apart helps to ensure that each person carries a cohesive and whole sense of self that strengthens the sense of togetherness."
-Wendy Allen

We'll paint a picture of how expanding our horizons as individuals will enable our "coupledom" to flourish when we share personal discoveries.

I've learnt so much, so much today.

Anyway, I've scored 19/30 for my math tests! I know there's still room for improvement! :)

From this day onward, I'm gonna learn as much as I can everyday because there's so much out there for me to experience. In relationships, studies, life... so much more.

Tomorrow's gonna be a good day!

Peace out,
Jazreel.

v=fλ

2009-02-23T02:08:00.000-08:00

I long to watch the sunset by the beach with you and only, you.

How time flies!
2 more tests to go...
I barely studied for the history paper last night. I was able to remember everything about WW2. But yet, there seemed to be loopholes here and there. I just flipped through the textbook one last time and went to bed. Oh, thanks Jocelyn, Olivia and Bei Yin for helping me to cramp up those last few points just before we entered the exam hall.
Nomura Kichisaburo and Cordell Hull!
Am I right?

God-damn! Physics paper tomorrow! I better pass! I don't wanna fail again. Oh wait a minute, did I told you guys what happened last year? I was embarrassed in front of the entire class for failing the easiest Physics paper. Shit. Mr Song definitely made me realize how lousy I am. But still, I haven't been putting effort at all to revise last year's topics.

Ben sent my mum about the report of how I've been doing at tuition. It's horrendous. I burst out crying to myself knowing that I could have done better. I hate this feeling, knowing that I'm starting to trip and losing grip of everything, everything. I don't wanna feel this way next year when I look at my O's result slip. I wanna feel proud of myself!

Knowing myself, I can never study alone. I need people around me to encourage me and tell me that I can battle this war ahead of me. Thanks baby and my girls, for letting me know that I'm not alone. Or else, I may be like some of the Iraqi soldiers who felt that there was no morale in battling the war anymore and surrender.

Omg, I had a sudden flash of the gong bird's face from the library. That made me giggle!

v=fλ

I can do this!

Jazreel.

Peekchas.

2009-02-20T20:50:00.001-08:00

Since I was bored, I decided to upload all these pics from my phone. :)

Jazreel.

Boredom kills.

2009-02-20T20:36:00.000-08:00

I'm so not in the mood to study at all now. I wanna have a break from all the books and head out to have fun. Urgh, bloody O's. I have to get my retainer brite thing. Whatever it's called. & some other stuff. Someone, call me? :)

Jazreel.

If only you knew.

2009-02-20T04:02:00.000-08:00

I'm so disappointed in myself.

Everything I do is dumb or stupid. No matter how hard I try, it's always wrong, wrong, wrong. Is it wrong waiting for the person you love after school, watching him do what he loves most, then chat with each other on the way home?

There's a saying;
"Treat others like how you want to be treated."

I've given you everything I've got, everything.
I wouldn't mind being the one having to give all the time because I know,
somehow and some way, you would soon learn to appreciate the things I've done.

Jazreel.

Depletion

2009-02-19T05:13:00.000-08:00

I'm so mentally exhausted.

If I told you that studies are taking 75% of my time up everyday,
is that good or bad?

What I really wish I could do now is hug baby to sleep for as long as I want. Then, wake up and hang out with the girlsssssss.

Math paper today. I think I would do pretty well considering that I managed to solve all the sums and finished on time. Yayyyyyyy, it's the first time in 1 year plus that I managed to finish the math paper. Okay I know, it's pathetic but at least, for once I succeed.

Muahahaha, Chem paper tomorrow. :) I really love Chem because I have an affinity for it. It's like I just happen to know the reactions between the chemicals. How weird. I wanna get full marks for Chem!

Okay, gotta bathe and shit, then revise and chat with love!

Bye, bitches.

Chafe emotions.

2009-02-18T03:56:00.000-08:00

Today is just so not my day.

I felt so agonized at the thought of nothing. Someone please tell me I'm not suffering from premenstrual syndrome because whenever I do, I tend to hurt the people around me without giving any thought and then, regret later when problems starts surfacing. I managed to fight those emotions by ranting nonsense on my blog which was the posts I've deleted. I thought it was a waste or you may just call it crap.

I think it's time that I should rely more on myself. Since young, I've always been used to people doing things for me and yet, I wasn't grateful at all. I really hate it when people take things occurring around them for granted. I know, this is contradicting. It sounds like I hate myself. In fact, I don't at all. I love myself a lot kay.

I also need to start planning about what I want. Since, it's already February and I have no aim or goals at all. How am I gonna live through the other days of my life not knowing what I want?

For prelims, I wanna do well and hopefully get a DPA (direct poly admission) and get myself in the design course at either NYP or TP. Or maybe, business course. But wait, I can't even pass my math, how am I gonna take business or even get into poly. -.- Omg, see! This is what I mean, I don't know what I want!!!! *screams*

For RoysonQuekJiHao!
Hey love, I want you to study hard after your season! I'm serious! We must get into NYP! After O's, we shall get a job and earn big bucks together. Start saving, buy your motorcycle then can ride me to school everyday. ^^ You know I'll always be here for you and supporting you in every way. I love you! (K)

For my girls!
You girls ah, stop being distracted! Must get focused and aim to do well for O's and N's. Don't no action talk only (nato)! We must start planning our time wisely. Study, play, exercise, boys, school, pms... I'm sure we can do this, girls. Together we'll be the best of the very best! Love youuuuuuuuuuuu. *flying kisses*

For my all readers!
I feel like I have no time and you think you have a lot?? I don't think so! Off your com and do something much more wise kay! Work hard, play hard! :)

(heart),
Jazreel.

P.S. I miss my braces. :(

'Cos she sees sunrise in his eyes.

2009-02-15T05:28:00.000-08:00

Hello, I enjoyed my Valentines' day so much! Did you?

Baby got my drawing (above) and the heart-shaped print boxers I got for him. Hahaha, he said I drew his nose too big, LOL. But he still like it very very much! Omg, this is one of the best pencil drawing I've ever done. Right, we continued watching the movie which till now, we haven't completed and it's only a 2 hour plus movie. Aiyoooooooo. Had dinner and then we went to soak in the warm pool for about an hour. Maven cooked Ramly burgers for all of us then mum came home with hokkien mee for supper! :) Fell asleep soon after... I heard baby snoring ah! So loud, but I like! Hehehe.

Baby left for home in the morning then I met him, Lowell, Kokping, Rina and Baiyong later at mac at noon to study. On my way there, I saw this old woman who was carrying such huge heavy bags and one of her wrist was injured. I felt so sorry for her that I helped her with her bags and walked her to the bus stop :)

Later, we ate then went to amk library to study for social studies. Baby highlighted all the important points that I need to remember for the test. Thanks love! We all went our seperate ways after getting stationery from Popular. While walking towards amk hub to take 262 to Bishan Park, baby and I this poor injured white dog near the bakery. We felt so sorry for it that we followed it to the staircase downstairs the block. I called mum and dad but no one answered. I wanted to bring it home. I told baby to go get some dog food for it while I waited. But but but, suddenly this fat ugly heartless woman with oily hair and horrible pigmentation came towards me and kicked the dog. I scolded her and she shout at me that that was her dog. Bloody hell. I'm damn irritated/pissed/annoyed that there's such people on earth. Evil, evil, evil. Just plain evil! >:( Took a bus to Bishan Park and then, baby and I saw a half-naked man using a used coca-cola bottle to scoop the water from the pond and bathed himself with it.

These incidents that happened today right before my very eyes made me realise how fortunate I am to be having such lovely parents who worked so hard to support this family and have provided me with everything I wanted. I swear I wouldn't ask for much anymore, I'll cherish everything I have now, forever. (Including you, baby) I'll study hard and earn as much money so that hopefully when baby and I get married, we don't have to suffer in poverty or what so ever problems that would have to be dealt with money. But I know, with baby here, we'll overcome every obstacles and hurdles together. No matter how hard life would be, as long as baby and I are here for each other, everyday would be a beautiful day. Right, love?

I love you with every breath, baby.

Jazreel.

I love you, you love me.

2009-02-07T08:21:00.000-08:00

I love you,

you love me.

We are one big family.

With a great big hug and a kiss from me to you.

Won't you say you love me too!

Isn't this pic cute?

Heh.

I drew it with some application on my phone known as Flipbook Lite.

I'm gonna head to the shower now then knock out on my bed.

Yayyyyy, can't wait to see my baby tomorrow.

Awww~

Love my baby & girlies & "boyies",

Jazreel!

Mot.

2009-02-07T07:38:00.000-08:00

Woke up bright and early only to head to Ben's for tuition. Went to Ham's for awhile then met the girls and we went to Bugis to shop. Soon after, they came over to my place for dinner, the boys and Rina came over too! We had barbeque food and string noodle. Right, I've nothing much to blog about. Oh yes, I'm gonna meet baby tomorrow. Hehee... Bishan Park! :)

Hope you guys who came over had fun!

Love,

Jazreel.

Zoom.

2009-02-06T06:12:00.000-08:00

My life is revolving like a circle which never stops spinning and I find it so hard to keep pace. Some say that life flies past real fast and indeed, it sure does. Ever felt like 24 hours a day isn't enough? Or wished that we were robots with feelings who never needed to sleep or eat? Well then, I'm glad to say that you aren't wasting your life away because you've been really busy.

What I want you guys to know is that to never forget about the ones who loves and cares for us. No matter how caught up we are with our lives, we should take time out and spend it with people who we enjoy being with. It could be the least exhausting thing you could do. Like taking a walk or jog in the park and/or catching a movie with your friends. Also, never forget to show and tell them how much they mean to you in your lives!

Yes, Valentines' Day is around the corner. Start thinking about the special person you would like to spend it with. It could be anyone. Don't feel shy about asking them out. Even if you were rejected, at least you knew you tried. It could also mean giving little gifts.

Remember; it's the thought that counts, not how huge or expensive your gift may be.

Okay, shoots. I don't even know why I type all these. Anyway, I hope it helped you guys.

Don't get why people created these Nikon Cameras?
Right click on the picture above, save it and zoom in.
You'll find out!

Tata!

Loveeeeeeeeeee,
Jazreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelll.

When all seems wrong.

2009-02-05T04:47:00.000-08:00

Hey, I would like to tell you guys a story about someone I know very well. I hope you guys would learn from this.

Her heart stopped the moment he told her those words. She knew, deep down inside him, it wasn't true. It was a moment of anger and fiery. No matter how hard he'd tried, somehow there always seemed to be a problem.

She decided to give him the cold shoulder or silent treatment, smashing the things around him, telling herself that she's just letting off steam. She'd thought by doing so, she would get his attention. As a matter of fact, she did but those were methods coming from the wrong directions. This wasn't the first time. He wants so much to let her know that that was wrong, however, she seemed to be in her own world. He couldn't get to where she was.

Until one fine day, the truth came haunting and ripping her inside. Like a thunder bolt that had struck her directly, she finally saw how much he had loved her. In her dreams, she saw herself as another person. Someone she knew but yet, had changed so much to the point she feels so ashamed of herself.

From a far, she saw their relationship on the verge of breaking. Knowing that if she had not done something fast, she would lose him forever. Like a heart that needs a beat, he was her strength, her courage, her passion, her everything.

She saw the tiny ray of light glowing in her dark room. She learns that loving someone is being the best person she can be for him by knowing what he wants and what he doesn't. He hated to see her life revolving around him and only him. She knew it long before but just couldn't help herself to stay away from him.

She decides to study hard and this will help her to concentrate and focus in the later months as the national examinations are approaching. She tells herself that she would learn and study. Knowing that by doing this, she can direct her attention somewhere else and would also be able to be there when he were to need help in his studies.

She knows that fixing this relationship would be hard. It'd take a lot of time and effort for the both of them to get past this hurdle.

She hopes they could get over this problem and would be determined to fix this relationship together. She once took an oath and told herself that she would never leave him when he were to be faced in adversity. She will try her very best to solve every problem, no matter how hard it gets.

She knows that both of them are committed and truly love each other, this will all work out in the end.

His confidence in her is shaken
His trust in her is fully broken
Their past happiness seems forgotten
And it is her who allowed it to happen

So, sorry needs to be spoken
For she know that he is heart brokened
But she hope his heart will soften
And somehow, one day she will be forgiven

(heart)
Jazreel.

Because my love for you keeps growing stronger.

2009-02-01T07:02:00.000-08:00

Love can brighten our day,
but love can also be filled with shades of grey.

Love can make us stay,
but love can also force us to walk away.
Love can be gentle and gay,
but love can also be fierce as they say.

My days you have made brighter,
because you fill them with much laughter.
My heart you have made warmer,
because you care for me and our future.
My life you have made happier,
because you make everything sweeter.
My feelings are stronger than ever,
because you make me love you like no other.

Happy 3rd anniversary, baby.
I love you, Roy.

(heart),
Jazreel.

The Notebook

2009-01-30T09:52:00.000-08:00

I know, I've neglected this blog for far too long. A sincere apology to those people whom would come by and check if there's any new posts. Thanks. Oh right, the picture above is a movie which was last screened in 2004. I was over at Veronique's place and she saved it in a thumbdrive for me. I've watched it, it's brilliant and I uploaded it in my phone! It has won 11 awards and 7 nominees. I just thought it would be nice if I shared this with everyone. :)

Oh yes, I've been really busy with almost everything. Went to town with baby on Thurs night to shop then knocked out the minute I got home. Some of you guys in my school would spot Mr Pillai filming me with the vid cam. Don't be alarmed, it's no biggie. Just be patient and wait, you'll see.

"When we help others, we are helping ourselves; The Boomerang Principle."

~~Jazreel.~~

Life lessons.

2009-01-25T10:50:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone, I was surfing the internet when I came across some valuable stuffs from wikihow.

"Jealousy is a combination of fear and anger: fear of losing something and anger that someone is "moving in on" something that you feel only belongs to you."

~~~

Do you know that saying "I love you" in different tones can mean differently?

Check it out here.

Hope you enjoy reading these stuffs.

Lurve, Jaz.

A moment like this.

2009-01-25T08:27:00.000-08:00

The party at my place was a blast yesterday. Thanks to my dad who barbeque-d most of the food for us and my mum too, who bought all the food. & of course, all those people who made this party so wonderful. After everyone filled their tummies, we headed over to play pool. Soon after, my brothers, Kamler, Lowell, Zuokuan, Laura, Rina, Baiyong, baby and I went to swim and we played some challenge thingy which was damn tiring but fun! :) Laura, Sera, Amanda, Weijie and Yusheng left soon after.

Later, my parents brought all of us to Prata House for supper!!! Yipeee~ Then my parents sent all of them home. :) Ham stayed over! We karaokeparty-ed, made doodle thingys on miniclip then we decided to go to bed.

Woke up and had steamboat for lunch. The nicest thing I had was the Cheese toufu my maid fried. Damn nice, even better than the ones from school! In the evening, Dad send Ham home then we headed over to Gram's. Had yummy and sumptious reunion dinner, & jelly which my uncle made for dessert.

Whoa, I had so much so fun! Wee wee wee~~

I hope you guys out there have a very happy chinese new year and like every kid would wish for; lots of ang baos!!!!!!!!

Gong Xi Fa Cai, Wan Shi Ru Yi!

Lovex.

❤

2009-01-19T03:53:00.000-08:00

By the lake with it's warm air,
you run your fingers thru' my hair.
Into each other's eyes we quietly stare,
a little kiss follows here and there.
Love and tenderness simply flare,
so joyful the moments we have to share.
Sweet hearts we are in this beautiful love affair,
no one can dispute we are the most loving pair.

I love you, baby.
~~Jazreel.~~

2009-01-19T03:45:00.000-08:00

Hello, I've nothing much to blog about actually. Oh yes, I've lots of homework from school and tuition. & bloody Deleon tripped me during History remedial today and I landed on my bum bum with a huge bruise on my shin in a mermaid posture. I know, freak the bloody frog. Kidding la! Aiyooooo, I doubt anyone is even reading this. -.-

~~Jazreel.~~

It's you and me against the world.

2009-01-14T04:16:00.000-08:00

I know I haven't been here regularly. I'm just so lazy and tired whenever I'm back from school which would be around 9om/10pm. I had been staying back to study and that's good 'cause I get to finish my homework and revise for the other subjects. Brilliant isn't it? I've decided the polytechnic of my choice. What I really like about NYP is that it's so effing near to my home and I could wake up later for class. But I really like TP which is far from my home, very. I'm really determined to take the Diploma in Apparel Design & Merchandising. It's superbly interesting and the facilities there is good! Oh freak, O's first. I've to study doubly hard to bring my L1R4 from 31 to <15. Shoots. :x

Alright, I guess no one would even be reading this. Oh well, I gotta go for my piano class now. See you guys around.

XO.
Jazreel.

What I did during the weekends...

2009-01-14T03:55:00.000-08:00

~~Jazreel.~~

Standing on a rope, 3000 metres above the ground. I feel so small.

2009-01-04T05:15:00.000-08:00

I know, it's 4 January and I still haven't wished everyone Happy New Year.

Baby and I were at marina bay for countdown. We waited for 2 and a half hours just to catch the fireworks and it was all worth it. The fireworks were exploding right in our faces. Zomg, I felt so scared. Haha. Since it was our 2nd month anniversary too, we decided to head to Bishan Park. Went home really early in the morning then knocked out on my bed and fell into a really deep sleep.

Woke up pretty late and had Teppanyaki for lunch at Hub. Got stationery and my contact lens then met baby at Central. We caught Seven Pounds. The story line is very mundane in the beginning but you'll get to know more in the 2nd hour. It's very touching. Then, we went for dinner and baby sent me home.

Term 1 Week 0. What's this? Nonsense. I got caught for nails and was seperated from the rest. Wasted time walking back to the new site. Heard enough of the principle for the entire morning. Ran through some admin stuffs. & gosh, I can't find my health booklet. Shoots. Went for lunch at Prata house then went back to watch the boys play. I fell asleep while watching them. Lol. Too tired already. Baby and I headed to his place so he could take his bath before going for dinner. After everything, baby sent me home again. :)

Headed to town. Got my shoes and stuff. Went to Bishan Park then home.

Baby came over at noon to watch Prison Break with me and somehow, my lappie can't read the epis. It's so annoying. Soon, Joanne came over and she passed me Christmas present. Then we all slacked and threw my stuffed toys around. Lol. I walked baby to the bus stop unreluctantly. Not long after baby left, Joanne left too. Then I was so bored and tired and dying from the cramps, so I went to sleep. Then now, I'm here.

I gotta go to bed early. I shall go and pack my bag now.

TTYS.

Love,
~~Jazreel.~~

Bye 2008.

2008-12-30T07:19:00.000-08:00

Greetings living beings, I just painted my nails bubblegum pink with shimmers in it! :) Weijie bought that nail colour for me!

Baby and I went to the polyclinic yesterday. After getting my queue number, we waited for quite awhile to register. We decided to go get something to eat since we still have to wait for a few hours according to the lady at the counter. Caught Yes Man after eating. It's pretty hilarious, not bad! We walked back to the clinic and guess what!! It's closed! :O Since I didn't felt that horrible in the end, baby sent me home. :)

I woke up early and head to the showers. Mum drove Maverick and I to school. Maverick headed for his orientation camp while I headed to watch the boys play. Before the match started, Laura, Weijie and I ran about the school to look for Maverick. Somehow after awhile, we started running about for some reason and we thought how ridiculous to run infront of the juniors. We found my brother and we headed back to the indoor court. Otw, we bumped into Maris' players. So, the boys lost. Laura, Weijie and I are still very irritated about the man who told us to give 2 points to Maris and he accused us of not paying attention. Seriously, what nuisance and nonsense!! Lowell, Kok Ping, Baiyong, Wai Kiong, Weijie, baby and I went to Semb Hill Food Centre to have our lunch then headed home. :)

Alright, the year is about to end in approximately 25 hours? I ought to do some reflection.

I feel that I have slept through the entire year and I feel quite lost about practically everything. Studies, I hardly did any revision. (Horrendous)
Piano, I flunk my grade 8 exam. (Failure)
However, I got closer to most of my friends and girlies.
Some exceptions though. I'm really disappointed about that. I tried so hard yet all I get is a what-the-hell-are-you-doing-here look from you when I bumped into you at school. I never thought this would happen. You would just disappear and pop out of nowhere whenever you like it. Do you treat all of your friends like door mats? Come to us only when needed. Bloody hell. :|
I'm so freaking pissed.

I have to start working harder, real harder.
I've to keep myself away from distractions is would be so hard for me to do so.
Urghhhhhhhh, freaking O's.

~~Jazreel.~~

Look at how the stars shine for you.

2008-12-28T03:17:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone. I'm sick. The viruses are setting in after like what (looks at fingers) 5/6 days hanging out with another sick person. B, if you see this, I'm kidding only laaaaaa. Okay so, both of us are sick, very sick. Baby has lost his voice. :( Aiyoooooooooo.

Yesterday, baby and I met for dinner. Then we headed down to East Coast Park. Gazed at the stars by the beach. :) Baby sent me home soon after and he cabbed home.

Damn, I'm too sick to go on. I shall go and lay on my bed now. :(

Love,
~~Jazreel.~~

Merry X'mas to all.

2008-12-26T09:37:00.000-08:00

Alright, Christmas is over then it'll be the dawn of a new year which means schools starting. Yayyyyyyyy, I wanna wear my "durian puff"uniform. Okay so, I had a busy week.

On tues, I can't remember what I did but I'm sure it took up the whole entire day. Oh right, I packed my room.

On wed, it was christmas eve. My entire family, except for the maid, left for Mount Ophir in Malaysia. So, I went to town alone to get some stuffs. I shopped for 4 hrs alone w/o rest just to look for candy canes. I swear, my feet has blisters after wearing the crocs pumps. It sucks, don't ever get it. If you do have, lubricate your feet before wearing them. After all, it's still "rubber", you know. Met baby after hurting my feet on my own will and we head to my place to change to flip-flops. We slacked and when we were about to leave, god decided to give Singapore a heavy downpour. Since, we still had 10mins walk after reaching the bus stop opp Springleaf, we decided to cab down. We got there just about time for dinner. Caught The Little Nonya while some of them were playing mahjong and some others were busy playing the dices. Baby was sick so we left early. But we got lost in Springleaf estate for an hour and 20 mins that when we finally found our way, we met the rest at the bus stop. -.- Went to Bishan Park for awhile then cabbed home.

On thurs (Christmas), baby came over to my place then we watched teevee and I took hours to get ready to go out. Since it was very late already, we decided to just go somewhere near for dinner. Ended up at Prata House and we saw Chengni, Jason and Rachel. The girls came over with mini candy canes. How sweet! :) Came home soon after and watched tv again. -.- Then baby had to go home and I walked him to the bus stop.

On fri, met baby and Lowell for lunch and then head to school to watch them play their match. Went for dinner at S-11 then head home. My family got back, Maverick and Dad are sick. Thank goodness, I didn't join them. Wahahaha, I laughed at them when they told me it was horrible. LOL.

P.S. I know I know, this is a long post. Anyways, I've decided that I'll blog about my week every weekend, rather than having to blog everyday. :) Saves time, you know. My O's are coming in less than a year. Oh, that reminds me! Did anyone did/lost their holiday homework? 'Cause, I didn't and I've misplaced them. Prolly, it's already out of the thrash can about to get recycled. Alright fret not, we'll all just not do and beg the teachers to give us more time. Then, we could all discuss and provide each others answers. Set??

I have to get back to my life now. (PH's quote)

Love,

~~Jazreel.~~

Today is a better day. :)

2008-12-21T10:31:00.000-08:00

Repulse Bay Beach (Hong Kong)

HEY YOU! I just got out of the showers not too long ago. I had a horrible night last night. One of my nostrils was up with blocked nose and the other was runny. It's super difficult to breathe so I breathed through my mouth and fell asleep for like 10 minutes and woke up later 'cause my mouth was dry and thirsty. WTH?!?!?! I finally went to sleep peacefully at 7am and woke up at 12pm with really swollen eyes. At around 3pm, I met baby at his house bus stop and we went through Bishan Park to take the bus down to Junction 8. Went to get some food then head to the library. Dad fetched me later while B left for his competition. Had dinner at Ikea and bought lots of stuff.

Poor baby. :'( He went all the way to (somewhere far) only to find out that the spotlights at the competition area was spoilt so the match was postponed. Aiyooooooooooo.

I shall end here.

Love,
~~Jazreel.~~

Hong Kong & Macau & Zhu Hai

2008-12-20T04:43:00.000-08:00

Singapore - Hong Kong

Hong Kong

Hong Kong - Macau

Macau

Zhu Hai

Macau

Think it'd be nice to jump in on such a hot day.
But wait a minute...

...this is how it looks like inside the sea. Ewww, lots and lots of seaweed.

When I saw this tweety, it reminded me of Weijie. We were trying to imitate this tweety during interclass competition. LOL!

The view from our hotel room is beautiful... Wow... :O

I want to have a house facing the sea like this. :)

I spent 3 hours uploading all these pics. ...Zomg. :O
Hope you guys enjoy it.
:)

~~Jazreel.~~

2008-12-20T00:21:00.000-08:00

The Little Things - Colbie Caillat

Fireworks.

2008-12-19T09:00:00.000-08:00

I met baby, Baiyong and Zuokuan in the evening. We caught Ip Man at hub. It was entertaining and the little boy who acted as Ip Man's son is so adorable. Lol. After the movie, we went for dinner then headed to town. Baby wanted to get his shoes for school at Heeren. Soon after, Zuokuan and Baiyong left for home 'cause they wanna watch The Little Nonya. Hahaha. Baby and I went to Bishan Park. On the way there, we fell asleep in the bus. :) Vivo tomorrow but I'm kinda grounded after coming home late these few days. I'm not sure though. Baby has 2 training tmr, school's and Adidas's. Awww~

I have to go to the supermarket soon to get stuffs for something. Heh heh. :D

Night night.

~~Jazreel.~~

Heroine.

2008-12-18T09:35:00.000-08:00

This picture was taken in Hong Kong.
Mum and I wanted to take a picture.
We were like :"Wait, I make my hair first." together.
& Dad happened to just snapped this.
:)

Hello everyone, I met Sera at 12pm today and we headed to town to do some Christmas shopping. I bought a really pretty top from Zara and Sera got some Swarvoski crystals placed on her ipod. Heh. Soon after, B came to meet us and Sera left. We went to Cine to eat and caught Twilight. After the movie, we went to Bishan Park. Then, I came home. :x

Oh, my brother is posted to Peirce! :) Will be skipping tuition and go to school with him tomorrow!

Night, love.

~~Jazreel.~~

Yesterday was bad, today's worst.

2008-12-17T03:02:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone, I had a really bad day yesterday due to some reasons and today's worst. I had tuition early in the morning with a really bad gastric and I didn't mention anything about it to Ben. After tuition. Mum called and said she was gonna come and pick me up. Okay so, I felt so hungry and there wasn't anything close-by that I could get to fill my sad and grumpy tummy. I walked all the way to Shaw Plaza and grabbed a double-cheese burger to munch on and got a bottle of Ice-Mountain to drink. I know, I sound like a loser but I'm really trying to save as much money as possible. Even if it's just 10 cents, it'll make a difference. You'll find out soon about what the money is used for. :)

So, I got home and I went online immediately hoping to see baby online. & he wasn't, so I guessed that he might still be asleep. I watched Paris Hilton's New BFF in the mean time, & I'm done watching all of the episodes. If you're wondering what is it about, click here to check out.

I was so bored out later that I decided to pack up my room for the New Year. & boy, I realised how much rubbish that has been accumulated in my room. I still have my primary school worksheets in here. Like, oh lord! :O I'm starting to clear bit by bit.

I was supposed to meet baby right after my tuition but he said he had something on, so I waited. After 6 hours, he was still busy so I decided to just stay home and pack up my pathetic room...

Today's just such a lousy day for me and this vid really made me feel so much better.

I Kissed A Girl (Parody) - Katy Perry - Elderly Remix

I've to get back to my sad life now.

XO,
~~Jazreel.~~

I want a candy cane!

2008-12-15T09:29:00.000-08:00

Hello there, I woke up bright and early. Had pancakes and I took my time to get ready to meet baby, Rina, Baiyong, Zuo Kuan, Kok Ping, Darryl and Lowell. We caught The Day The Earth Stood Still. To me, the story line is weird. So artificial and unbelievable. While waiting to catch the movie, we went to Cheers then Ntuc to get tidbits to munch. All those junk food were stuffed in my bag. Went t the arcade after the movie. Soon after, B and I left. & we headed to Bishan Park since we had nothing to do. I can't believe we spent 2 hours there. :O

It's 2.18am and I gotta go to bed.
Night, world.

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart."
-Hellen Keller

~~Jazreel.~~

All that we are is the result of what we have thought.

2008-12-13T09:10:00.000-08:00

Hello there! I woke up and had lunch. Then got dressed for ELLE's Ladies' Back-to-basic party at Dempsey Hill. :) It was great!! Dad dropped me off at town when the event ended and I headed down to meet baby. We went to Vivo and it's damn freaking crowded due to a performance at the Skypark and Zouk Out at Sentosa. We had our favourite hokkien mee and sat at Skypark, then home!! :)

I might be swimming tomorrow but depends on whether my period is gonna end. If not, I'll just head t town or do something uh.

It's 2.42am.
Baby is wasting electricity by watching Jackie Chan's movie.
-.-
I'm not wasting as much 'cause the laptop requires lesser energy to run??

I'm gonna hang around abit more then go to bed.
Oh and I'm still working on the summary of my holiday in Hong Kong. :)
Please be patient.
Tyvm.

Love,
~~Jazreel.~~

Saturday, baby!

2008-12-11T09:39:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone! I was blog hopping earlier and I saw some snapshots of how my new school would look like. Oh, it looks beautiful. I can't wait to go back to a place where all my sweet memories laid. Find out where my class and assigned desk would be. & baby's of course! How I wish our class were right beside each other and seperated by the sliding door with holes in between. Both of us would sit at the back of the class, peep at each other & slide paper/love notes through the holes during classes. Awww... (eyes sparkles) & could someone please tell me that the kitchen block is still intact and left untouched?? I want it there where it used to be. :( Oh well, if it has to go, it'll go.

How does it feel not being able to see the love of your life for 2 days? It's like I've "commando". :O Baby's complaining about how many types of cream he has to apply before going to bed. He has cream for his face, knee, rash and white spots. How's that? Getting all soaked and feeling oily all over. Awww baby, you'll be fine in no time!! I'll pray for you, my dear.

So my plan for tomorrow is stay home to brush up my piano piece, do my math tuition homework, make up my hours of sleeping late these few nights. Oh and I'd be going for ELLE's beauty talk on Sat, shopping later with mum and (the best part!) meet baby after not seeing him for 3 days!!!! WeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEE!!!! Can't wait yo.

Oh and did I mentioned that I'll be having pancakes with lots of maple syrup for breakfast. Mmmm... sounds yummy!!

P.S. "Commando" means underwear-less. Opps!

Night, world.
& to baby, who's dreaming of us watching the sunset in the Maldives now. :)

~~Jazreel.~~

Playground.

2008-12-10T06:41:00.000-08:00

Seriously, I can't stop giggling at this pic.
Sera and I were... (eyebrows goes up and down).

~~Jazreel.~~

Happy Birthday Fatty Ball #2 (Maven)!!

2008-12-10T06:00:00.000-08:00

Aloha. I know I haven't been blogging. Sorry about that. I'm just so lazy to type about my day. However, I think I should somehow. So I woke up bright and early today and left home for Ben's. I had a very slack tuition with a mini test at the end. I did so terribly. Oh no! :( Ham and I waited for Dad to come fetch us. I left for JB later and I had seafood. It was great but I had a terrible tummyache later. & I bombed the toilet at the shopping centre. :O Hahahah. I bought a few pairs of earrings. Then we had ice cream, cake, lagsana and cheese fries. Yeah, then came home. I slept the whole journey back home and I'm still sleepyyyyy. Oh yes!! I'll be going out with the girls tomorrow. :)

~~Jazreel.~~